Dear cranberry:
Regarding recreational therapy vs occupational therapy- there are many classes both majors have in common, classes you have to take whichever you choose as your major, I assume. Maybe you can take all those classes first, classes that will count for whatever you choose as your major later?
As to “why I am not enough or how come he does not want me anymore”- you shared in previous threads that you were often mean to him, jealous for no real reasons, manipulative, making his life more difficult, this can be a reason.
You wrote that you “feel so lost and stupid”. About three hours earlier you wrote about that break up that “it has made (you) a bit stronger and a little wiser too”-
Will you share about this little wisdom?
anita