Hello and thank you for stopping by on my post. Just to give some background about myself, I am female, 32 years old, I am single, no kids or responsibilities. I have generally been a nervous, anxious person up to this point, i would say I have social anxiety, no friends, low self confidence and lack of belief in myself. I would also say that my most predominant emotions involve getting angry or having a temper. I only show this to my family at home and it is verbal nagging, arguing, complaining not anything physical. I feel as though I have much more negative vibes about me. I read so much articles, blogs, watch videos, try to meditate, research chakras, listened to mantras, EFT tapping . I have to knowledge but lack application and consistency to really make a difference in my life. I feel so much resistance inside sometimes and it lies dormant and then rises up at times.

and since I was a teen, I have always felt like I didn’t know what I wanted to do as a career. I always thought that I would eventually figure it out. As a teen, I wanted to become a teacher and did the subjects required bit didn’t get accepted. I felt confused and basically my brain froze. I didn’t know what to do next as I never considered not getting in to do my teaching degree. My parents had to make the choice for me of the next best thing which was a business degree which I gained.  My wish for teaching no longer exists. I eventually became an Administrative Assistant until my contract ended a few months ago so I am currently unemployed.

I feel as though from the time being a young adult to now, I still have no dream, goal, interest, motivations toward anything, no passion or burning desire to achieve anything in particular. I don’t have any hobbies or interests. I don’t feel like I have any sense of direction or figuring things out. I feel as though I don’t know myself or what I even like or want personally like children, getting married, my own home. If I think of something like a normal desire everyone has for instance is owning a home, it feels like a fleeting desire for a couple minutes and it dies down. No real desire to command any action. Has anyone experienced this or can point me in the direction of understanding this?