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  • May 28, 2018 at 6:01 am #209713
    Anonymous
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    Dear Grace:

    I felt sad, reading about your cousin, dead. How he encouraged your dancing, how he was alive not long ago, in your last memories of him, the revolving door, the hug.. and then he was gone.

    His hug is very different than the other bodily contact you described, the guy, in your words, grabbing your ass, repeatedly. This grabbing has been distressing to you. Unlike that hug, comforting.

    My advice: keep that hug in mind and reject the other thing, the disrespectful gestures.

    anita

    May 28, 2018 at 12:24 pm #209783
    Grace
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    I’m well aware that people go through much harder things than me. Just reading some of the titles of some of these forums makes it seem like my problems are the equivalent to a bruised banana. But i just seem to fake moving past things i can’t seem to shake these things. They all have a toll on my life. They’re holding me back and I’m a pretty happy person but when I’m up late or by myself i just can’t help but think about these things and feel sad about my parents and their relationships, letting a new boyfriend or girlfriend of theirs in and them being there and then 5 months later not. Or my cousin, I can’t even talk about him, i just cry, it just devastates me. Or just like with this guy that ive always been drawn to even though the ass grabbing should’ve been a red flag. Just recently my dad was arrested for a DUI. i mean im not mad at him, i kinda make fun of it with him. But i mean all this happens to me and i just get overwhelmed. My friends and i have a group chat, in the past ive tried to consult them about stuff because im a social and open person, and all i wanted was advice or someone to listen to, in the end, i was just called an attention wh*re. So this guy Tom who ive just always been drawn to was like the only guy ive liked for the most part, and he was like the only one who listened to me and given me advice. It’s hard to try and let him go. I don’t and won’t trust my main friends because they just seem to be drifting apart. This guy tom is the only one ive been 100% open with, i told him about the dui, my cousin, how i feel about everything, even my mom trying to IVF with her now ex-boyfriend, ive just told him a lot. And its like thats why i didnt feel as violated as i probably should’ve felt last year. i just cling on to things. i feel overwhelmed for a 16 year old to go through these things. i just want to be clear im not contemplating suicide, and never will. as i said i am a social butterfly and a generally happy person. i just feel overwhelmed with no one to talk to so im happy i found this place.

    May 29, 2018 at 3:14 am #209871
    Anonymous
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    Dear Grace:

    I don’t think that your “problems are the equivalent to a bruised banana”, or that they are less than the problems of others. I wish your parents were living together, in a good, loving relationship, no arguments, no fights, that you felt safe and at peace living with  them, that your parents wouldn’t allow your grandmother to criticize you, and I wish everyone treated you respectfully, in your home and outside.

    But this is not your life, and so, understandably, you experience distress. I hope you do post here anytime you’d like, sharing your thoughts and feelings.

    anita

     

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