Oh my dearest…
Yes, you are overthinking this, although your considerations are reasonable and it’s good to see things from different perspectives. It seems you see so many perspectives, though, that it’s paralysing you.
I agree that no one is the bad guy here. But from the way I see it, there are three people in this relationship, and it is not good for any of them. It’s nobody’s fault, but this is —-ed. No one is happy with the situation as it is. And how is it going to change? You are pulled in opposite directions. I’m not sure there’s any way out but… out.
You sound so trapped. Set yourself free, and see if life doesn’t get a bit easier when you can breathe.
I’m so sorry for your pain. I wish all three of you happiness, safety and peace.