Hi Sandy

I am so sorry for your suffering.

Hey, when things are refusing to go correct or according to our plans, it often means that the time has come to Stop, Assess and come up with a new strategy or plan. Your higher self is wanting you to take a new direction in life, which is based on self-love and nurture.

What has gone in the past is gone. It aint coming back. However, if you dont make your present better then your future will suffer too. Is it worth it ?

Can I suggest the following meditation when you are feeling low ? It works subtly and all you have to do is close your eyes for 10 mins or so and listen to the sounds. Try it once a day for a week and see the difference.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=b05pGueHux8

Can I also suggest that while you have got some free time now, pls use it for yourself ? Such as cooking yourself a nice meal, listening to some peppy or high energy music, watch movies on own – cry or laugh, go out with yourself for a coffee and cake, go out in the nature for a stroll, go to a puppy shop and play with some pups, go for massage, help out at the local charity shop or old folks home etc. There is so much you can do, which will make you feel better and bring you out of this dependency and negative state of mind. Please remember, what we do with our emotions and feelings is setting the path for the future. We can change our future by living in the moment and cherishing everything and everyone around us. It is all happening for our highest good but we dont have the vision to see it as yet.

Sending you loads of positive energy,

Jasmine