Hello everyone, thank you for taking the time to read my post.

Recently I have been through some life changing experiences and emotions.

I have always been people’s go to friend. The “tag along” friend. Always ready to do what they wanted to do.

That has always been very full filling for me, but after this past year and these emptions, I am trying to work on myself. Body, mind and soul. It is hard enough for me to actually commit time to my own happiness and health, my friends of years, cannot understand.

The moment our friendship is about me and not them, they accuse me of being weird and angry.

This has happened with all three of my closest friends this past two weeks, no matter how hard I try to be there for them and for myself, I still feel like I am drowning.

I feel like it is hard to understand without examples and context .

I suppose I am trying to respect my time and what I choose to do with it, and do that same thing for my friends.

When I communicate this (the best way I van right now) it is met with anger and blame by my friends.

I am just at a loss. I want to grow, and I feel like I am growing in other areas, and my friends are angry I want to grow.

I also don’t want to run away from my problems, that is something I am working on.

This morning I had a big argument with a friend, I tried to be respectful and sencere with my apologies, and they could only apologize for the argument.

Any help, or similar situations or advice are appreciated.

My significant other is so supportive and down to earth. We have talked, and I feel good about that. I just feel alone in the friend department, and need to talk these deep feelings out.

Thank you, much love ~sunchild