I dated a guy who used to be in the military for 6 years for about a year on and off. He was extremely honest to me and told me what things were wrong with me bluntly. Being from Asia, it was a fresh experience to find someone so frank. I liked that he was trying to help me become stronger as a person by becoming better able to communicate my opinions and emotions, which was never encouraged where I came from. I fell in love with him for his intelligence, honesty, sincerity and kindness toward me. Since he experienced much continuous pain from a military injury, however, he would often become mad at me for reasons I didn’t understand why. He had been cheated on by girlfriends in the past and had trust issues. I am an emotional and affectionate individual who likes to have plenty of affection shown to me so I sometimes felt during our relationship that what we had wasn’t enough. He was a lot more reserved in his affections and would not even hold my hand in public. In the end, we broke up because he wanted to take a break from our relationship to focus on school and job searching, which I could not accept easily. His friendship and support were so important to me and I could not imagine my life without him. We ended up fighting about it and breaking up. He tried to get back together with me a  couple weeks afterwards but I told him with all the fighting we had gone through I wanted to end my relationship with him completely. This happened about five months ago and he has kept emailing me after that. I finally blocked him two days ago. I have been reading his emails begging to have me back but not responding for the last 5 months because he called me a lot of bad names when we broke up. I miss him and want to reach out to him but I know that I should not be with him and we are not good for each other so I am trying to stop these feelings.