As a kid, I was always a good student. I wanted nothing more than to grow up and be good at a job and have a good life.

I’ve never been one to know what my true passion is. So when I went to college I picked a career path that was known to offer employment opportunities. I took it basically because I wanted to work. I did well in my program, and when I graduated I was able to get a job. I’ve been told I’m very likeable, but when it comes to working, I don’t seem to do so well.

No matter what I do, I seem to make mistakes. Though I am really really trying not to. I seem to become overwhelmed and disorganized because so much is happening at the same time. Things get lost in the shuffle and I end up missing important deadlines or things go out late or I make mistakes.

I’m starting to feel worthless. As if I have nothing to offer. I’m not sure why I am even here. Lots of people have told me I’m great to work with, I’m friendly and very helpful. I come in on time and I am always willing to lend support in other areas if needed.

All of my friends are having families (something I very much want too), and buying homes. And I am just scraping by. I’m trying to stay positive and work on myself, but I’m not sure what to do. I’ve been single for a while, and my last two relationships were not so great either (verbal & emotional abuse with one, and the other one cheated). I’m trying hard to pick myself up and keep trying.

But as I was thinking about what my purpose was, I couldn’t seem to pin it down. I feel like I should just know what my purpose is and be amazing at it. Everyone has high expectations of me, and I feel I can’t meet them even though I desperately want to. I have the right intentions, but I seem to miss the mark.

I feel lost 🙁