Dear Madi:
You wrote in your post before last: “I was often alone in my youth and never made any strong connections. When I met my friend, it was the first time I was instantly able to make a connection.. I often do take the blame.. because of this fear I have of trying to keep people close”
In your recent post you wrote: “my relationship with my parents has been very positive. They are very supportive and caring and often support me in chasing my dreams. I think I do feel bad that I am not able to reach what I think their expectations are of me”.
I wonder (1) what are your dreams. (2) what are your parents’ expectation of you (3) alone in your youth, no strong connections with peers and with your parents?
anita