Frank, you are a brave brave man for facing these things and taking it upon your self to carry it.

Here is what I wrote in other post…

I’m currently homeless at the moment. I’m living in my car right now waiting for school to start this fall on august. I work part time but I don’t have enough money to afford rent. I choose to eat instead. I’m currently trying to apply for another part time job but so far no bite.

You see last year I made the decision to move out of my parents house. I decided to leave the safety and comfort of my parents house to go out here and pursue my dreams. Yes as a result, I’m currently homeless, and yes as a result I’m currently broke. But you know what? I’m the happiest I’ve ever been in my life. Because although my progress is very little, I know I’m going towards the right direction. Although my improvements are as little as an inch each day, I know that that inch will become a mile someday and I’m willing to go through anything, survive any trials that gets in the way. I’m laying each brick of my life one day at the time. Every morning I get up excited to lay the brick of my life as perfectly as possible because I know, and I can clearly envision it now, my layers of brick of life will someday turn into an indestructable wall of life. It will happen and I will do it.

Every single day, is a painful rejection i go through. I’ve literary talked to over 80 employers(I’m counting) and so far no one has another part time job for me. Every time I come to work, I try very hard to hide the fact that I’m homeless, and I swallow my pride each day. It is painful yes, but the rewards in the future more than compensates for this.

Every week my parents and siblings calls me telling me I’m crazy, that I should go back to safety before I hurt myself, that I’m being delusional. But I can taste, feel, see, smell, touch my goals and I know I will be there so no matter what is happening now, it’s just a small obstacle……

The point is life hits very hard. Sometimes you get knock down and it feels like you can’t get back up. But that’s where its most important. That’s where you must give it everything you got to get one more time and fight. That is where the next stage of your evolution happens. It’s not easy I know but if you give up then that is worse than failing. You must find a way to turn this challenge, mold it into something that will change you to become a better you. If you get pass that, then you will be unstoppable.

I know you can fight this Frank, and I know you have everything you need to reach a level higher than you’ve ever been. All you have to do is decide, and the next step will be clear. I wish you the best of luck!

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I understand your panic and anxiety Frank, I know how tough life can be.

The fact of the matter is nobody knows that forward is for you, not I and currently not even you. In the end, you are the only one who can answer that. I understand there are so many fears and anxiety going on through your mind right now, many pressures and expectations to be met. Understand that we all have these challenges we go through in life, old or young, rich or poor there are these challenges out there for you to overcome.

Now I understand you have called me on my cell phone, and in the little conversation we had I sense you are suffering from depression. I can give you a suggestion on what forward could be. Right now, the thing you should focus on is beating this depression. Focus on it for now, this is your foundation. Don’t think about anything else, this is where you must start. I agree start over from the very begining and this is where it is. For now, don’t think about the bills, don’t think about living with your parents, don’t think about other peoples perceptions, I dare say it but right now let go of the worry for your daughter. You will come back to these things as soon as you handle yourself and emotions.

Emotions is where it starts, you first have to have a grip of who you are, what you value, and believe. Once you got that settled then you can begin to build your life one step the time. So go out there focus on understanding your emotions controlling to turn into an overwhelming passion instead, and start from there.

My friend, you are capable of a lot more things than you think. Email me at bboyjacks@yahoo.com if you need to speak more about your situation, I’m willing to help you.