Hi anita,

I’m disheartened. This weekend hasn’t gone as well as I hoped; I made a mix up with some curtains in the bedroom so don’t have any now. I feel a bit too self conscious to move in without curtains. I can’t tell if that’s logical or silly. And now I can’t tell what colour or size to buy. Making decisions is so hard, I will go over things for hours and hours and think I’ve made a decision but then someone will say something and then I doubt it and start all over again. Not sure what to do now.

To your questions –

I don’t go out much in the evening at the moment, but it was my plan to as my confidence builds (which it will with moving). I hoped to go to a local climbing group, something that would be social/fitness related, or to take an evening class, money permitting. At the coffee shop they do various meetings now and again for discussion or sharing food and things, and it would be nice to go to those and get to know the staff better.
Even if I didn’t move, my dad doesn’t mind giving me a lift sometimes, so I was going to ask if he could pick me up once a week from something. I wouldn’t want to ask if I’m not living with him as it feels quite cheeky.

The therapy group is each Thursday. I went this week, the weeks prior I missed a couple, but before that was attending regularly.

The volunteering was during the day on a Friday. I used to go most Fridays, but haven’t been much since Christmas as I’ve felt anxious going back. I went back one week and had a panic attack so left early. I went and spoke to the staff a couple of weeks ago about starting it up again once I’ve moved and they were very encouraging about it. They’re super lovely.

Thank you for talking with me.

anita,

My aunt has lent me some old curtains so hopefully good to go now. 🙂

I couldn’t ask him of those things. His job is very important to him. I just need to deal with it; it is my problem and not his, and I don’t want to cause any futher trouble.

Hi anita,

Moved out yesterday. It’s very strange! I suddenly have a lot of free time and feel somewhat empty.

I expected this, but still, very odd!

How have you been?

That sounds like a peaceful morning. 🙂

Thank you anita. Yes – I put up the curtains my aunt lent me for now.
I’m not sure how I have more free time. I think it’s because I’m not at home and my brain isn’t thinking about what my family is doing. I would spend a lot of time on the computer or generally looking at screens. I think it was as a distraction, but now I’m alone I don’t feel the need to distract myself so much.

I feel generally disinterested in everything right now and hope this will pass.