Hehe I’ve never really thought of walnut cake as awesome (Carrot cake on the other hand…)

I totally agree that contentment and bliss are two very lovely experiences which help to make life as good as it can get. Sadly contentment and I have never really seen eye to eye on an emotional level. I’m materialistically content, in that my home is what it is and rarely undergoes any change as I have everything I need and have realised little value in wanting for more – it all works and that’s fine. I crafted my apartment into a nice place to hang my hat and, well, there it is. All the comforts I might be inclined towards and nothing more. Where me and contentment have an underlying issue is in matters of creativity and love. I think I’m happy with all I’ve created, but I can never really pause and enjoy things as much as someone else might with my own work. I’m always on the jump for the next thing (drawing, music, writing, photography) which is why I’m so mystified and stuck in the doldrums with this lack of motivation – as someone who enjoyed being creative this is not a natural state for me, and I suspect it’s dragging everything else down in me. Love? Well, love inspires me in much the same way as it does everyone, but I don’t need it to stimulate my art – I WOULD be screwed if that were the case.. Lol. Spiritual teachers aren’t easy to come by, so I think you guys in here are “it”. I’m thinking that I just need to try and reinforce my connections to people – keep making the effort to be out rather than indoors, mingle and continue to wander about in crowds until I can get my bonds back with people. Who knows, in the end it may be just such a simplistic act which will bring someone else’s love into my life. I suppose stranger things have happened.

Thanks J.. I’ve not been awesome before (is that better than “walnut cake awesome”?) – I’ll take you up on the half-walnut half-carrot cake idea in lieu of your mud cake! One day I’ll get there and try that.. Thanks for the well wishes and I hope you have a great weekend too!!

Yeah we’re on the same page – I use awesome all the time too J.. Worry not 🙂 If you ever get caught short for the word in Japan, it’s “sugoi!” (soo-goy-ee).. That’s my anime side coming out lol 😉 Have a lovely evening/day!! All this international contact leaves you all over the time.. Makes you very grateful for mindfulness lol