She loves me, yes she does she says and sing it but she doesnt show it that much. Her personality took me some time to study i accepted my fate. I look around I see other people how they are happy in the relationship, the love is visible and glaring. How they talk yo each other with cheer and gladness. But Ours is kind of different. When ever I take her out with my friends she might just ignore me through out the occasion no talking of sort. I accepted my faith thinking that is her personality. I will try to console and convince myself
3. She complains about everything I am not doing right. She wanted to be a mickey boy a person that shows and text her every morning and afternoon she wants to tell her I love you every day. I adjusted thinking this will make her happy but no, it will just look like I did not do any adjustments or change. She will again bring some other of her emotional needs of her for me to meet up with I will try and meet up, what killed me was at least if I try to change to suit her I should see some level of reciprocal doings from her. But no she will bring up something again for me do. She only show true affection when she is happy. This were my thoughts a certain night I thought about it for months. Because I am a kind of person I over analyse issues before taking decisions even if it is a small decision. it is its own disadvantage and advantage I know. So I broke up with her but with a mutual reason of spiritual incompatibility I was concerned about her feelings that I did not want make her feel real bad. She cried we both cried. Then two weeks later out of loneliness and ignorance (It was my first break up though) I never knew loneliness was part of the aftermath of breakups even if it is for a right reason. We got back together this time she thought I came because I now realise I cant leave without her(she was wrong) that I cant go anywhere so she started misbehaving and acting ”like yes he came back thing. So I knew things can’t work between us”
After the break up she did mention something i will like to say. She said she failed that she was given a flower but she failed to water it and it died. Because i told her the plain truth for the break up that it was due to her selfishness and almost everything i mention earlier.
She also said she knew alot of things that could make me happy but she did not do it because i did not tell her. Why will someone who loves you say this to you ? is it normal ?
Some days I feel happy I left the relationship some days I feel regrets, some days I just feel lonely. I don’t know if anyone has pass through this similar situation.
Reading all through my write up does it make sense to get back to her. Please help. It is has been 6 weeks of no contact. She called twice in between asking about my work and life then texting me she will be leaving town that I wont see her again and all of that.
Please note: She has a child out of wedlock which she hid from me but I knew through my personal findings. I asked she said it is her aunt’s child but I knew she was lieing. But I loved her still.