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November 28, 2018 at 10:46 am #266241
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GuestDear iamzen:
Reads to meĀ that you made the right decision: for a wholeĀ year the two of you actively participated in an affair thatĀ included romantic and sexual elements. I don’t think it would have been possible for you to have suppressedĀ your feelings becauseĀ she flirted withĀ you and likely to have continued to do so, encouraging thoseĀ feelings you wouldĀ be trying toĀ suppress.
MovingĀ forward, keep a working-only relationship with her,Ā isĀ my advice.
anita
November 29, 2018 at 5:27 am #266627iamzen
ParticipantAnita,
thank you for your advice. Iām beginning to feel bad about my decision. How do you suggest I deal with feelings of uncertainty?
November 29, 2018 at 5:38 am #266629Anonymous
GuestDear iamzen:
Can you stateĀ exactly what it is that you are uncertain about?
Also, you wrote:Ā “our relationship became extremelyĀ flirtatious.Ā TheĀ sexual chemistry we haveĀ is undeniable”- can you give me a couple or few examples of her flirtatious or sexual-chemistry talk/ behavior?
anita
November 29, 2018 at 6:31 am #266713iamzen
ParticipantWell, she was my first close friend I made at my current job and now I feel disconnected from work. Im also feeling anxious because I want to reach out to her and ask if we can just be friends again but I doubt thatāll be for the best.
Also, these are a few examples:
One day we were sitting in a conference meeting and she grabbed my hand under the table and held it for a few seconds ( I was completely confused).
In October we attended a business trip and she kissed me which lead to a make out session. But the next day she acted like nothing ever happened between us.
November 29, 2018 at 6:48 am #266729Anonymous
GuestDear iamzen:
I see why you put quotation marks around Straight in the first line of your original post referring to your co worker. “she kissed me which lead to a make out session” is evidence to me that sheĀ is not on the straight endingĀ of the straight-to-Lesbian spectrum. And so, the friendship wasĀ partially a physical, sexual affair. One make out session makes itĀ so. Problem is, “the next day she acted like nothing ever happened between us”.
But something did happen.
Friends do talk about something that did happen, don’t they? But you never talked about it. I’d say, if you were toĀ reconnect with her, talk about it, share, explain, figure out what it was and what it is that isĀ between the twoĀ of you. What about bringing this up to her?
anita
November 29, 2018 at 6:59 am #266731iamzen
ParticipantI brought it up to her but she was a little dismissive about it. She told me that she doesnāt like talking about What happened between us because it makes it easier to forget and Iām the complete opposite. Iām extremely emotional and need to talk about how Iām feeling to feel better
November 29, 2018 at 7:30 am #266757Anonymous
GuestDear iamzen:
How can you possibly be ZenĀ (in your username), if you can’t talkĀ about significant things happening in a relationship, beĀ it a friendship or otherwise. Let’s say you resume a friendship with her, next time something significant happens, do you wait to see if she decides retroactively if it happened or not?
I understand that you areĀ lonely at work and that you have a long distance relationship, so you need somethingĀ close. How is the long distance relationship?
anita
November 29, 2018 at 7:46 am #266773iamzen
ParticipantI am able to talk about everything that happened between us but she isnāt. Iām always open for discussing how I feel but when you have people who avoid their feelings the situation gets complicated.
After i mentioned maybe after some space between us we could possibly be friends again she blocked me from her phone.
My my long distance is going good. I just miss being able to see my gf everyday and that can really be frustrating.
November 29, 2018 at 8:24 am #266791Anonymous
GuestDear iamzen:
She blocked you, meaning she is not there for a friendship or anything else. So your uncertainty is a mute issue, correct, meaning it doesn’tĀ matterĀ if you are uncertain about a friendship with her becauseĀ there isĀ none and she made a clear move of letting you know that she hasĀ no intent to have one with you.
Unless she forgets that it happened tomorrow, like she did theĀ kissing, do you think? AndĀ then unblocks you?
I don’t know theĀ circumstances of your long distance relationship, but you do need a closeĀ distance relationship.
anita
November 29, 2018 at 5:01 pm #266933iamzen
ParticipantYeah. Iām sure she will eventually unblock me because she has done all of this before. I often question why are my feelings so strong for this person if I knew nothing would come from the relationship.
but, yes i agree. Long distance relationships arenāt my thing.
November 30, 2018 at 8:22 am #267055Anonymous
GuestDear iamzen:
If your long distance relationship is not going to change soon, maybe you should end it so to avail yourself to a short distance relationship.
Regarding this woman, “why are myĀ feelings so strong for this person”- the answer could be something as simple as why I feel so strongly about meltedĀ chocolate- I had wonderful experiences eating melted or meltingĀ chocolate, the taste, the texture, itĀ felt so Ā good. So ever since Ā I feel stronglyĀ aboutĀ melted chocolate, have a desireĀ for it. I knowĀ itĀ isĀ fattening, but I still want it.
anita
December 3, 2018 at 10:58 pm #267675Bakedbean
ParticipantDear Imazen
I may be able to clarify why your feelings are so strong. She is out of reach. Emotionally unavailable. She has given in to lust and in doing so, has confused your emotions. This intensifies them. You deserve more. You deserve a person in your life to hold close and who will openly discuss their emotions. That is what emotionally available looks like.
Start be being open to that possibility.
Bean
December 4, 2018 at 7:03 am #267697iamzen
ParticipantAnita,
Thank you, that was a great analogy and It helped me understand my feelings a little better.
December 4, 2018 at 7:07 am #267699iamzen
ParticipantDear Bean,
I find it ironic you said that. A few weeks ago my therapist asked me why was I so interested in being in complicated situations where people are emotionally unavailable. Sometimes it confuses me that I continue to attract these type of people but I believe this is sign that I need to top and look at the energy I am putting out.
iamzen
December 4, 2018 at 7:34 am #267705Anonymous
GuestYou are welcome, iamzen. Post anytime you’d like.
anita
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