Word,

Outside the TF thing. Growth feels like that especially when we are self conscious. We feel like we are not doing enough but it’s moreso about trusting our own process and trusting we will get the tools we need in time and when it’s time to grow. Like meeting him, it just happened when it was time. Also I think people confuse growth for becoming something completely differnt than what we are… it kind of is, but it helps to think about it this way. Growth is unfolding, becoming ourselves more, a truer version of ourselves. So who you need to be, you already are that, you just have to catch up with yourself.

In terms of the TF thing, i got all the signs listed that you will find on every website. lol

also because of how my intuition works, I would get communication from L in various ways. They would come through as thoughts and intense emotions, sensations and feelings in my body.

Numbers have always followed me, but 4’s and 8’s when I met L, as those are TF specific numbers. Now I’m getting 9’s & 5’s since i’ve allowed myself to let her do her own thing and give myself space. 9’s & 5’s are about growth and renewal and change.

Songs is a fairly new thing. I’d ask L a question, not get an answer, but a song would immediately start playing in my car that ive never heard before but is exactly a specific answer to a question i asked. Or i’d think of her and a song would come on related.

I also see a lot of people who look like her, when im really alone and feeling as if i need someone, or after we get into an argument and i know she’s feeling bad about what she says, I’ll go out and people who look like her will be around or gravitate towards me. Sometimes they even carry the same mood. it’s wild.

So much more. But it was kind of crazy making, so i had to lean on my community of other TF’s so they could let me know im not the only one.

It would be one thing if they were delusions in my head. but they were signs outside of me. So thats why it helped when L mentioned they get signs too.

One day i was driving and I play this game where I try to manifest certain things. And I wanted to manifest Orange and blue cars, but i kept seeing tons of yellow and red cars. I was frustrated. I then got home and checked the snap from L and L sent me a photo of flowers (also our symbol and sign) and she was saying how amazed she was that the vine had both yellow and red flowers at the same time.

stuff like that.

cool!

Yes, L likes to be outside too. she really needs nature to feel grounded. She is very simple in that sense.  I personally can do without the woods/insects & weather challenges lol. But i respect her thing, and if she ever asked me I would join her for a hike. I always wanted to picnic on a mountain somewhere with her.

i personally don’t own a tv havent since high school. I know that’s weird. If i do like a movie it’s rare, or i watch the same ones over and over. i do like all of will smiths movies though. Lately i’ve watched some hulu, here and there, ill watch key & peele. I really like Bojack horesman and Rick & Morty. It’s good to just not be so serious and worrying and to laugh sometimes. I also enjoy doing stand up comedy, it’s been a minute but have been thinking about it a lot lately.

Yes, we are still connected. I don’t know how long it will last. I worry she will just forget me or move on or meet someone else. But i also trust i will meet my life partner even if it’s not her. I came to a realization i need people. Took years to admit that. It’s biological though, studies show since the beginning of mankind, people without healthy attachments are more likely to die sooner. I also realized it’s kind of relevant for me to have a partner with the type of work i do. I do a lot of energy work with people, i help people process often, i help people activate their own growth and healing. But who will do that with me? It’s very lonely at times. Having the insight i do, and doing the work i do that I don’t always feel it’s my choice. I feel the universe just brings certain people to my doorstep so to speak. but I feel I am supposed to have someone to come home to, who is home. Who we can both do that for eachother in a safe space. or just rest and nap together and rejuvenate and be present with one another.

Also, what do you mean by do the work for him? sorry I was half asleep when I responded.

Anita,

i think you are exactly on point.

Apple Tree,

just saw your question “how have you seen your answers to questions?”

I get answers by simply asking then releasing it and trusting the answers will come in due time or trusting the resources to research or delve deeper into new information will be delivered. When I look too hard for answers it’s harder to distinguish what’s real and what’s trauma lens. So I found trusting and releasing works.

i also re-read where you said the person you love doesn’t love you anymore or doesn’t feel same way bc he’s dated more people. Our situations are very similar. Me relating to the person you loved. He does still love you , people who love you enough to push you to grow don’t just stop loving you. But sometimes it’s easier to brush it off or bury it beneath surface in order to move on.

When we feel people so deeply, and are highly connected such as me and L or you and your person. Those intense emotions are hard to deal with bc we care so deeply for one another. It’s extremely painful to be in separation, it’s extremely painful to witness someone we love be at odds or struggling or not choosing what they desire. It’s extremely painful to find someone we feel a deep connection for and that we feel we are supposed to be with, not choose us back and it’s even more painful when we know they like us back and feel same but still don’t choose to take a leap. As it validates , “this is real , this is my soulmate and a blessing yet – they aren’t going along with the plan and I feel cheated.” That’s how I felt with L, and I was very resentful and hurt . So it’s not that he doesn’t love you. He just did what he had to do, being so sensitive and empathic , in order to move on.

we create intimacy . And we can recreate it with others . They may not be the ppl who initially sparked our flame. But as we heal our attachment trauma, we can find relatively descent partners.