“Any person, regardless of the circumstances, can decide what shall become of them—mentally and spiritually.” – Viktor Frankl (Holocaust survivor) Man’s Search for Meaning
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The fact that you have found happiness despite the abuse, the trauma, the insecurity, the memories that surface when you’re forced to act on a brave decision (the “double-edged sword”) makes you a warrior. And as cliché as it sounds, you have only gotten here by following your heart.
I wish I could tell you what to do, but I can’t. I can only remind you of the heroine you are to every young girl and boy that has experienced sexual abuse, and the obligation you have to be true to yourself and them.
You are 25, young but with so much to offer to this world. You sound bright, optimistic, you’re writing a book and giving speeches—but let this be the last time in this life you feel torn over the garbage that man imposed on you. And as a writer myself, there is only one way I know how: feeling my painful past in every inch of my body and soul, sitting at the keyboard, remaining in this damaged state until my catharsis has cried out onto another chapter, essay, or poem.
If your heart is telling you to open the flood gates, pull the lever. Let the world know what you’ve been through and drown it with courage. And even if you don’t mention it to anyone, you’ll always have the chapter and speech ready to inspire others.
– Sun