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  • #270543
    Anonymous
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    Dear Eli:

    Your heart is not stupid or wise, it just wants to love and be loved, that is the nature of a heart.

    Regarding clothes he  bought you, you mean? What I would do is sell these clothes if possible, or keep them. If they bother you a lot, then sell them  for any price or give them away.

    *These clothes and gifts are not … sort of ownership documents. He doesn’t own you. Your value far exceeds the money he spent on these  gifts.

    anita

     

    #270551
    Eli
    Participant

    Dear Anita

    I can just talk about him here with you and others here. I can not talk about it at all I don’t know what other people feel and think about me when they know I was with married man with family do you think they will blame me ?

    #270555
    Anonymous
    Guest

    Dear  Eli:

    Some people will  blame you.  But then, some  people will blame me for what I typed here for you. Some people do blame me every day.  So what?

    Yes, it is uncomfortable, even distressing when others blame us, disapprove of us, not liking us, think bad things about us… but everyone  does, we can’t prevent it.

    Think about this: in prisons, people who committed terrible crimes like murder blame other prisoners for doing worse crimes, in their minds.  So everyone blames everyone.

    It is wise to think before sharing information with another person: what is the purpose of me  sharing? What do  I want to get by sharing this? Let’s say you are  in a therapist office and  by law all that you share is confidential, and  your purpose is to understand better and  feel better, then it is wise to share.

    It is unwise to share with a stranger, one you don’t know at all, a person who can use  the information  you share against you. Let’s  say you share  with a stranger, or a person you don’t know well, so to feel better, and let’s say you do feel better but later  that  person shares what  you shared with  another person, gossiping about you. That will make you feel bad.  This is why it is not wise.

    If and when you move to a new place,  better start a new life there, and  not  share the  past there except in a therapy setting or .. maybe, with a very  trustworthy person you know for many  months. Maybe.

    anita

    #270563
    Eli
    Participant

    Dear Anita

    I am thinking how much I was blind I did not see truth I was angry at his wife I must be nagry at him and myself for wasting 5 years of my life .

    I don’t know how to explain some times I was in love with him die for him call him my love and now it’s the end.

    It really Brocken my heart why I trust him an dbelieve him why I let him use me like this

    How much I was dump stupid I did not earn any thing just some stupid travels and gifts and what else if I spend all this time and emotion for right person now I must be in more happiness and peace what do you think ?

    #270575
    Anonymous
    Guest

    Dear  Eli:

    Like  I wrote today, your heart is not  dumb, and like  I wrote to you a few  days ago, you do not lack intelligence. We are not born with wisdom. No one  is born with the  ability to evaluate another person for being good or bad. This is  something you learn early if you are guided  by a loving, attentive and emotionally healthy parent.

    You didn’t  have such a parent and  neither did I. So you wasted five years and  I wasted fifty. As a matter of fact, everyone wastes time, many  waste whole lives.

    Better learn now.

    Post more, I have time and power (electricity) to respond to you this morning, the electrical lines were finally  fixed before 3 AM this morning!

    anita

    #270581
    Eli
    Participant

    Dear Anita I am so angry fed up at my self what i did I must spend all this time and emotion for right person I am so regret

    #270589
    Anonymous
    Guest

    Dear Eli:

    What a  lot of people do when they regret having spent  so  much time and  hope and energy with a person, is… going back to that person and investing even more  time and hope  and energy, so to undo the waste. It is a  trap  of sorts.

    anita

    #270603
    Eli
    Participant

    It’s like big hole in my heart Evey few mins like stupid girl I check my phone to see is he messaging me or not and I ask Eli even if he message you do you want to answer do you want start again waste your life again you are waiting for what

    #270607
    Anonymous
    Guest

    Dear Eli:

    I know the  feelings,  Eli, you are not alone  in this. What  happens next,  most  of the  time, is  the person gets scared and goes back to the relationship, even begging the  person  to take them back. It’s the  fear and the pain. If that happens, you  can still  write  to me, I will  not think badly  of you.

    I do  hope though that you will somehow have the courage  and the strength at this time to do what is right for you. The choices that  are  right for you are always those that  give you dignity.

    anita

    #270629
    Eli
    Participant

    Dear Anita

    Thank you .I will not back to him it’s very wrong .I come and read this topic and all our conversations and I make sure I did right thing about leaving him for sure I will write for you and talking with you I feel so good for you thank you so much

    #270633
    Anonymous
    Guest

    Dear Eli:

    You are welcome and I am so glad to be reading your recent  post before I get away from the computer, I was worried. I think you are doing very well and if I am very impressed by your courage and strength, as well as your willingness to do the right thing  for you.

    I will soon be away  from the computer and  back in about sixteen hours. I hope to read from you when I am back, looking forward to it! Post anytime you’d like, any number of posts, will reply when I am back.

    anita

    #270683
    Eli
    Participant

    Dear Anita

    I hope now when you are reading you will be fine and happy. Dear Anita I stop check my phone or check him even . And today one of my friend from other country contact me and ask me how is it and I told her don’t ask about him we are not together and it was the first person who I told this to her. Now I have more freedom but I don’t want jump from this relationhsip to other relationship now I feel better just I am so scared how to control my life with out him support my self and I always be depended on him . Now I must just depend on my self .

    Some times I miss his words his fake hopes nice words he said me all the memories we had and I ask my self is it  possible after him I accept other man and replace with him.

    But for sure I understand I never try to get close to married man in the end I am looser.its me who hurting so much .now I am sure he is sitting with his family and enjoy his life and thinking about find other lover  because it his life style . All the talking about I am his first and last love his internal love for ever he never leave me he want me for ever he see his future with me he only love me he only want me need me miss me

    He called me his treasure and he never loose his treasure he called me my beautiful princess love of my life my oxygen I can not live with out you …..my god how he knows to play with my emotin he knows I never heard such words in my life no body love me and say these words and it was my weak point .

    Some people around me know about him not so much full of details just know I have bf so now it’s time I say we break up finish and I am moving to other city I hope Evey thing go on fine .and I always be like this I ma just worried again some think happens I back to him …and I am sure I am not ready for dating and new relationship

    #270691
    Eli
    Participant

    Dear Anita

    Please tell me no matter how much I feel sad I feel bad how much it’s hard just tell me I did right thing about left him for ever

    #270695
    Anonymous
    Guest

    Dear Eli:

    Leaving him forever is the right thing  for  you to  do, no matter how sad and badly you  feel, no matter how hard it is to leave him.

    It is the right thing  for you because you want  to be a man’s partner/ wife, not a man’s lifestyle (“I am sure he is sitting with his family.. and  thinking about find other lover because it his life style”),

    -because you need a man who values you not  as a beautiful object/ treasure, a  thing to  have or own (“He called  me his treasure and he never lose his treasure he called me my beautiful princess”), but as a human being with feelings that need to be considered, hopes and dreams that need to  be listened to,

    -because you need more than words (“I miss his words his fake  hopes nice words he  said”), you need honest words, not fake words, and you need actions that  express honest  love for you.

    anita

     

    #270729
    Eli
    Participant

    Dear Anita thanks God you are herenow when I am reading this tears is in my eyes . I am so happy I can share Evey things with you thank you so much .

    I know we have difference hours but even reading your message after 15 16 hours charge me again and give me motivations I deleted pics burn letters keep some cloths for wearing and I said to my self don’t think and remind him at all .now I feel more peace just I am worried about what will be happend in future no body knows what future hold for me it make me little worried .and because some time I did this horrible huge terrible mistake I am worried I do it again .today I was reading and searching I don’t know am I bypolar person manic depression  in stainless moody I don’t know really I remember one time he told me oh Eli because you are not staible and you don’t know what do you want I can not count on you and you don’t give me any power to move mountain for you and leave my wife .

    Is it really some thing wrong at me

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