Hi Shelley, It’s possible that some things happen for a reason, and sometimes things just happen. It’s trite in hard times, but some of its how we deal with whatever is happening that makes us or breaks us. I have severe anxiety issues (ptsd related) to the past few years of my life, which included a breakup, a car wreck and an abusive caregiver who assaulted me. I don’t believe that the bad things happened for a reason (except maybe the breakup, but I’m learning to accept that the breakup was collateral damage in the wake of the abuse I had been receiving). I can’t blame myself for everything that’s happened, and even my own reactions are full of self-blame in some moments (ah, if I could have only made the right choices!!)

But– things work out the way they work out and then we deal with things as they are, with a focus on what you want to become or where you want to go in life. I would suggest listening to the little voice that telling you to “wait a minute” if you can and really think about things. It could be the Universe telling you this isn’t for you, but it could be you telling you this isn’t for you. You are already unhappy. Or it could be your body’s reaction to the stress, as Anita suggested.

Vertigo sounds really scary and I hope you are able to get through any other issues with it in the future. I don’t know what your situation is like, but if you need the job, I hope you are able to stick with it until you are able to get the position that you want.

Peace ~E