Jamie Lee, it must feel very difficult at the moment, but there are places to turn to and things you can do to help yourself. If you do not feel comfortable contacting friends or family for whatever reason, you can contact a relevant charity and explain your situation. They will be able to offer you advice on what to do or where to go next. I imagine that it’s easy to feel hopeless and have little energy to act, in a situation like this, but this would only cause you and those who love you more suffering. I suggest you find out as much information as you can; with knowledge, you will find more options and be able to choose your actions in an informed way. I wish you luck.

Three years ago I left an abusive relationship and was living at a shelter, when I had an accident and broke both my ankles and had to be operated on both. I was in a wheelchair for about 6 months and recovery was about 1 1/2 years. I had lost custody of my child while in that abusive relationship. I could no longer work in my field which required that I stand for long hours, I was a chef. I ended up on welfare, and was very depressed. I got through a lot since then and I am proud of all the accomplishments that I have made since. I got back custody of my child, am studying for a new profession, and have a good healthy relationship now. How I got through it was 1 positive step a day. It could be anything, an act of kindness, a positive thought towards yourself, a positive act to advance forward…etc. And meditating prayer a breathing exercises helped also. I hope hearing about my story will help you, because there is always hope. Please take care of yourself.