Hi Anita

My evidence is that…

Funnily enough my councillor asked me this and I paused…

She told me I light up when I speak about him. Know reflecting on this I do have an answer…

I love him because whenever I’ve needed someone he’s always been there. I would happily give him all my time if it meant that it would make him happy. Even when he’s being off with me or moody, I don’t take to heart and don’t see the flaws. He’s always on my mind and when he’s not there I have to cuddle a teddy bear that he picked out for me just because it gives me some peace.

When I say I do love him….due to the nature of the relationship, a lot of my friends have said it’s not possible to love someone you’ve not met

Hope that makes sense!

Thanks

Harminder

Hi Anita

Yeah he never saw that but he did say once I was way too reliant on him for happiness. That I was happy when he was around but not when he wasn’t. I did tell him as well how happy he made me.

I guess another piece of evidence could be that I was willing to meet up with his brother who didn’t really like me.

You’re right- if it makes happy I won’t contact him and I actually haven’t since yesterday.

Thanks

Harminder

Hi Anita

I don’t think I’ve ever harmed him as such. I probably harmed him by relying on him foo much actually. I hurt him by obsessively messaging him.

I guess because I love him I’m going to leave him alone as his wishes. I’ll love from a distance.

Thanks

Harminder

Hi Anita

Thank you so much for talking to me. I felt so alone and low all weekend and you’ve helped me get through these past two days.

Thanks!

Harminder

Hi Anita

Hope you’re well.

I was thinking about what you said me… I message people when I panic and sometimes not out of love and I agree. I’ve been thinking about my situation with my friend. I wrote an apology but not sure whether to send it. Can I paste it here?

Thanks

H

Hi Anita,

Thanks you’re a star! I’ve pasted it below

‘I can’t stop crying thinking that you’re mad at me and would never want me to talk to you again. Just keep on thinking if a me asking you for food will fix everything but I know it won’t this time. Don’t know what to say to say right now and to make you believe how sorry I am for the hurt and drama I’ve caused you. Whatever happened last week was the stupidest thing I’ve done and you were right to be that angry at me. I feel even more disgusting for lying to you- it was never my intention to lie to you ever and some how in the moment it happened because I know how messed up what I did was. I’ve never lied to you before and I don’t know why I did it now. I did make that account on Thursday night- I was talking to my friend about how I had an online friend and they said it was all in my imagination and I had made it all up. I reacted the wrong way, and acted weak, and made an account to look up your account. I knew how messed it up is, so I was going to delete it on the Friday but I had to rush to work and forgot about it. I didn’t realize I had added your cousin until you mentioned it that evening. I know I should I have told you all this then but you were so angry, I didn’t know what to do to calm you down. I didn’t have an ulterior motive, it was just a moment of stupidity and something I do regret.
I’ve only ever cared about you and know I am scared that you won’t talk to me again over this. Give me a chance to make it up you in any way I can. I love you more than I sometimes show, and only ever wanted to make you happy. ‘

Hi Anita

Thanks for looking over that- I’ll definitely shorten it. We had this falling out two weeks ago, where he told me to leave him alone. Is it ideal to send it now?

Thanks

H