Dear alphabetsoup:
I read almost all of your post and understood very, very little. Your post does read to me a lot like an alphabet soup. Kind of messy. You wrote you had communication problems with your ex boyfriend. Well, I am having problems understanding you. If you would like, if you have the time and the motivation, will you re-write your post in a very clear way, much, much shorter and clear. A paragraph or two, short and clear.
I will be glad to read such and respond.
anita