This was a great read for me! I was following one prescribed program, which had a purpose of personal spiritual growth. It offered me so many things I’d never encorporated into my life before, yet I still decided it wasn’t the sole solution for me.

Since leaving I’ve told some of my friends and the overwhelming response was “when you bottom out again you know where to come”. I was told The guilt I felt was because I’m letting myself down, but I don’t see it that way. Life is so dynamic, and I love how flexible this is.

The fact that you felt no guilt in the original reading for your son while in 1st grade and sought to improve, which you did a year later….that is how I want to manage my own life life.

Right now im not sure what direction to go, I think there is still a massive void where this program used to be, and like ending a relationship, it’s just going to take time to adjust.