Hi,

Good morning, I have got nothing to say on this Anita, I do not know why are you feeling that way. It was your decision to help people and again its your decision not to help people. Do what makes you feel good. is that helping people or not? You have to do your karma. You do not have to consider other’s karmas else you will never be able to settle down.
Anyways thank you for helping me, thanks for writing back. weekend was okay, nothing great, usual fights, fears, and good times.. So it was okay. What else should I write, I do not even feel like expressing after reading your last post…
Because you think you are preaching or teaching, and which is not helping anyone. So I do not want to make it like one sided conversation. I felt nice, that alteast I have someone who can answer why do I feel that way, or anyways.
Thank you for helping me, guiding me. Thanks for being there.

How are things at your end and how was your weekend?

Thanks
I will continue to look forward to your replies.

Take care

Hey Anita,
Thanks for writing back. I wont force you to suggest me what to do. I wish I can be of some help. You have given enough, your presence, your time which is more than anything else one can ask for. Your time is the most valuable thing that you can share with someone. Its already afternoon here and I had been feeling something missing since morning. Because I didnt open or speak my heart out probably that. Or I do not know,what phase are you going through? But sometimes in life, we need to ignore so many things. I do not know who has hurt you, but do not take it to your heart. You have a role to play, continue to do that. What I have learned, that God himself cannot be there but he has chosen his sources to get things done. Long time back I used to do the same things, writing and helping people because I was a source of energy, full of life. I did not want anyone to waste their life over petty petty things, which wont even matter the next day, but anyways it helps. It really helps, there are people, you cannot do much to them, but by being there, by answering their messages, by give your time. What else one can ask for? If anyone has said something, ignore it. That was their job, that’s it. It’s done, it’s over. You are such a strong person, you should feel proud of yourself, that you can help people in your own way. That’s alright, sometimes we miss on certain things in life, because we are the source of GOD, we are not GOD himself… So what, learn your lesson and move on.. Do not carry the baggage with you.
I had a fine weekend, husband pampered me with his cooking , nice breakfast, followed by nice evening again nice dinner made by him but that turned out into a fight, because of too much drinking, which i sometimes do not like it. I cannot take that sometimes, I feel so irritating. I have recently switched over my diet from VEgetarian to non vegetarian. All my life, I had been vegetarian, but I do not have good feeling now, change in behaviour and these negative thinking pattern could be because of the eating pattern. I do not know what it is. So patched up because my husband was expecting his friend on saturday night, the one on whose bachelor party he went to, he invited him for dinner so he was with us and we patched up and we fought again in front of him. which i did not like but its okay. Then sunday started in its own speed with cleaning and all. And then sudddenly got an invite from one of his friend so went to their place for barbeque which continued till late evening and had dinner and back to home. So nothing other than that, few argument, I did revert so saved my fights and resolved the same time. So it was all good, just going with the flow. Not thinking too much but yeah my hormones are responding because I have not got my cycle as yet. Lets see, I am really scared, but nothing new for me so just dont want that to happen again, so that’s why crossing finger, will be getting the test done tomorrow. Lets see.

And remember
Time is your most precious gift because you only have a set amount of it. You can make more money, but you can’t make more time. When you give someone your time, you are giving them a portion of your life that you’ll never get back. Your time is your life. That is why the greatest gift you can give someone is your time.

Thanks blessing.

Good morning Anita,

I had been to Doctor, and the result is …..
Do not know, i have decided already not to go ahead, this is going to be my 3rd … But you know what deep inside i have a voice which says I should, i Must but the problem is my job.- the commitment at work 🙁
I can make my relation stronger with that new bond, but I know practically I cannot afford that. Because we can survive with this job without job it would not be possible.

Anyways I do not have much to write, probably I will wait for you to open up if not today may be whenever you feel like.
Yeah I will read again our conversation and I know what the problem is? And I am very determined, I will work on that soon.

Lets see how life moves, What else am I destined for? Lets take it. Let’s face the fear and embrace it.
Thanks for being there. I still have a reason to come online everyday to write a message to you.

Anyways take good care of yourself.
One more thing, what is your zodiac sign? I am virgo 🙂 do you believe in star signs?

Thanks Anita
Stay Blessed

Dear Blessing,
yes I am pregnant, No i am not keeping this, because we both are not ready as yet.
Will be going to doctor today evening after my work. Will take a break for 4 days to get over this.
Thanks for sharing this prayer. yeah right, I am not going ahead this time, because I am not prepared for it and we have lot of pressure from my in laws but I have told them clearly sorry, its our life and we cannot afford it at this moment. This is going to be my 3rd … How illiterate we people are, this time it was despite of being cautious and I was tellign my husband lets keep it because we had been cautious and despite of that this is happening, things happen for reason , they just do not happen like that But then I gave a second thought to this, that it is not practical and wise decision at this point of our life.

Thanks for writing back dear blessing.

How are things at your end?
Thanks for being there.

Take good care of yourself

Hey Dear Blessing,

your message always brings smile on my face. Thank you for being there.. Far away from me, yet so close. I am sure I will be cautious. Its very complicated here, you get to wait a lot for your appointments and all. And I really wanna get over with this before it touches the 6 week period because the SAC gets a heart beat and I wanna avoid that feeling. Yes, I am thinking of the pill one, my previous had been with the pills only. Though they are much more painful than the surgical one but do not want to think about Surgical one, I can bear the pain that is not a problem. That’s how life has been, keep throwing challenges. Do not know if that is destined or not, probably I am altering it , God wanted the other way and I am going against that. And I would have my own share of pain and suffering. Do now know really, what this life is all about, what are we destined for? I really have no clue. Sometimes, I think what am i doing here. Why dont you believe in this that everything happens for a reason, I have grown up with this strong belief, that everything happens for a reason and for a season. Yeah, that;s true, its a GOD’s plan, purely statistics, but that’s how he has planned and probably yes he has a reason for all these things.
Oh last night even I was being pampered my husband made dinner for me, yummy pasta… I have got the same for my lunch 😀
Looking for happiness in small things, and appreciating things.
I love TEA…. the masala tea 😉
I love sharing things with you.. Do you have kids?
How long have you been married?
What do you do the whole day?
You are already there for me, call it a blessing or an Angel.

Good night Blessing

I will look forward to hear from you.
Thanks for being there blessing.