Hello everyone. First post here, I’ve been lurking for a while so I just wanted to give something back.
Like a lot of you in this section, one thing that was always escaping me was a feeling of purpose / direction. This void was often filled by mostly negative emotions
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I would spend a lot of time in inaction , just pondering over my next move. A lack of self-esteem also meant I would second guess most decisions. For the space in my head, i had to much clutter.
Then I took a different view on life. I accepted I have stop comparing myself to everyone else and just start doing me. The answers for what is best for me, what am I good at , what would make me happy. Would never be found in other people. We each have our own unique story thus comparison isn’t clear.
I started to write. I viewed myself as the main character of this film called life. There would be challenges, losses and victories. Every incident would be part of the overall experience adding depth to the story, regardless if it was good or bad. Most of all, regardless what happens or how I feel about it.
There is an end to this life and thus the purpose of this story, can be whatever I want it to be. As a human being, and the main character. I have that right.
I gave myself an identity , The Boy Under The Bridge. I opened a website http://www.boyunderbridge.com
And I write about every experience , the good and bad, and it helps to derive meaning and appreciation. The ability to look back also gives perspective.
From this point of view, as a reader and the main character, I can guarantee this will start making a lot more sense.
I hope this helps.