Hi kadi,

Sounds to me like you feel like something is missing. You are not fulfilled by maybe your program, situation, whatever else.

You are doing all the right things so I don’t know if its something you can find externally. Maybe there’s something unsettling and deep down you haven’t dealt with it.

Enjoying yourself is hard when you feel like you are not doing enough to begin with. And then you feel guilty anytime you do enjoy yourself.

You are allowed to be happy. You’re allowed to be sad. You’re allowed to do whatever you need to do to make it though the day, week, month, year.

Just because you think that you have it pretty good and you shouldn’t complain doesn’t mean you don’t have the right to complain. Your emotions are valid and you can’t bottle it up because it may sound irrational.

I think deep down you know what’s making you feel so unsettled. It could be that school is ending soon, one chapter of your life is ending.

When you have bad thoughts confront them. Ask yourself “where is this coming from?” Once you confront what’s going in in your head you can recognize the pattern that triggers the negative thinking.

What do you think?