Kaypee,

I’m so sorry for the losses you’ve been through, and suffering through losing a child, parent and two partners in such a short time would be trying for anyone. When we have grief, its important to be extra nourishing to ourselves, such as spending extra time being kind and gentle to our mind and body. For instance, you ask “why does he contact me?”, but it might be more gentle to yourself to ask “what is happening in my mind and heart when I read his messages, look at his FB?” and so forth. His side is a mystery, and remains unknown, but you deserve to be happy, and finding the activities that bring you happiness might be a great place to invest your efforts.

For instance, perhaps your heart would heal and soften from going on walks in nature, watching comedy and laughing, taking a bath with candles, meditating, or creating some art. It can be so terribly hard to lose loved ones, either to death or disinterest, and our tender hearts need to be reminded of the warmth and light of the world. It takes time and many hugs, many tears. That’s ok, it just means that there is a lot of meaning to the relationship we lost. So we cry, give and receive hugs, and slowly, with time, heal the wounds. Namaste, sister, I hope you find love and light.

With warmth,
Matt