Hello everyone. I am new to this site. It such a blessing that I found this site. I have been through alot this last five years of my life. my dad passed away the 1st year, then my husband cheated on me a year after. A year after separation, I got pregnant by a new boyfriend and our baby had multiple organ problem and died after birth last year. The lost after the other specially my baby put me severe depression, jealousy and low self esteem. My ex boyfriend wasn’t supportive cause he also dealt with the death of our babe on his own. Now, he just don’t want me to be part of his life and blamed me for his depression which he had even before I came in his life but i guess he was using medication for it. I didn’t want to let go of him initially cause I always wanted us to fulfill our plan of having our own family. But eventually agreed with him. He also said he resents me and his sister who was nice to me before is acting rude towards me. It’s been two months but we were still staying together because of financial reasons. He is in vacation right now. We said goodbye prior to him leaving cause when he comes back I’ll be moving to a new province. I still help him out if he is asking favour from me the past two months. I just want peace of mind and be healed from all this heart break. My brain is not helpful at all. I tried all that has been suggested on this site. It helped me but I also always end up to feeling this way. plus seeing him in his fb, happy and moved on didn’t help. He still message me ”just checkin in on me” for a couple of times since he left a week ago. Seems My friends are getting tired of hearing me out about my sentiments. I just want to know why he still communicating with me? I am just feeling lost right now. I am gonna be building my life in a new place from scratch. Sorry for the long post. I just want this to get out of my chest. I just want to start moving on and continue with it without any setbacks.
thank you for your time in reading my long post.