Well, I have a question Who knows, maybe this turns into a few. I just kinda need to talk about something and I don’t have any friends who would understand.

I’m a 22 year old male. Recently, I started being emotionally and sexually attracted to a guy I haven’t even known for a year yet. People have known since I was 16 that I’m homosexual(I find the term “Gay” to be slightly offensive and very lazy. Growing up in a Christian City where everyone hates “Gay” people and constantly call people “Gay” as an insult; can do that someone. Way too many redneck pricks and they’re all teaching their kids exactly how to be douchebags.) so, coming out isn’t the problem. I’m glad I am who I am. My problem is, this Chris, the guy I care about, lives in New York. I live in Kentucky. He’s the sweetest, cutest guy I’ve ever known. I met him through an old friend of mine who now lives in New York. I love her so much for introducing me to Chris. The problem is, I don’t want a long-distance relationship. For one, it can easily put a lot of strain on the relationship between me and Chris. Long-distance relationships never end well. Two, I know he could find someone who lived near him if he tried. I don’t want to hold him back. I don’t want him to feel like he has to keep secrets from me if he ever did find someone he liked, I don’t want him to feel like I’m holding him back from being with someone who lives there.

I know for a fact that I won’t find anyone for a long time if not him. I really don’t know how to meet new people. It just feels like no matter what, I’ve got some kind of cross to bare.

And honestly, I’d be perfectly fine with how things are… Except the fact that I keep trying to tell him that I love him. I keep wanting to kiss him and sometimes I just start flirting with him without realizing it.(Which I’m lucky he can’t tell if someone is flirting or not. He’s slow to catch on to that stuff.)

But, I guess what I’m asking is not “How do I get over him”, only “Can I make this situation easier”. I don’t want to get over him. I love that I feel the way I do about him. But if I can’t help this situation, I’m afraid something bad might happen. If something happens, I want to know it’s something good. He means too much to me for me to take any chance at ruining this.

I mean, he’s the only guy I know who’s like me. Neither of us have had a first kiss, we’re both virgins.. Neither of us have ever had the chance to cuddle up with someone special. I get all fuzzy just thinking about him.. Any advice will be appreciated. But just saying it helps some.