Look up this “left my abusive husband” Read what thousands of others in abusive relationships have to say after putting in years and years of abuse.
Also read up on self worth and self esteem. Read up on “why women stay in abusive relationships” and realize you might be there already.
Which is very dangerous.
Love is not hate, love is not violence !!!!!!!!!!!!
If you are anyone says “i’d do anything for him” KNOW and KNOW NOW, it is not love, it is something else. That something else is rooted in your past.