Dear Riris:
You wrote that you “don’t know if that can be a solution”- I understand that you want him to be physically affectionate with you and that because he refused, you had an affair, or affairs. Are you closed now to that solution or are you still considering it?
If you are still considering it, then it will be fair for you to ask him, maybe he is okay with it, maybe he prefers that you have affairs than to touch you affectionately. If this is the case, you will learn more about him, wouldn’t that be an interesting piece of information, if indeed he prefers that you have affairs over touching you affectionately?
anita