I knew my ex on a wedding of my friend. We fell in love very soon and had 3 splendid months being together before she went abroad for study. We were engaged before she left. I felt so happy about my life and my future. After she left, we kept in touch through social media and I also applied for another school that is 3 hrs away from her school. I got admitted. Before I went abroad, we had 5 months of long distance relationship. During that period of time, she was under pressure for studying and I met some frustrations in my life, which made me very depressive during that period of time. We kept contacting each other, but I complaint a lot to her about the unfortunates in my life. Finally she was angry about my life attitude. So I promised that I would be positive.

5 months later we reunited again. I had one free month before I started my school. I thought things would finally be better as we were together again. But she told me that she could not find the previous feeling about me and was unhappy all the time. She was picky to my minor bad habits. I tried hard to make her happy, but things went ups and downs. One months later, she told me that she was thinking maybe i was not the one in her life. I was so sad and cried, and she told me it was just a thinking. Then she wrote a list of all kinds of my flaws to me, I was shocked but I promised I would improve myself.

I left her to start my school. Still, I spent 6 hours on a round trip to meet her monthly. I would call her every night, but she began to tell me that she was too busy and don’t have time for a chat. So I gave her time and space. After that, thing went worse and worse, and she began to speak some ridiculous words to hurt me. I was really tolerated and didn’t fight back. One week later, just before Vday, she told me she got an intern offer and I made a call immediately to congratulate. However, I was confused cuz she was so cold in the phone. I didn’t even know why. So i text her and ask “Is there anything you don’t satisfied?” and she reply ” i was not happy during the past half year. It’s time for a breakup”.

The next week was horrible to me. I tried to use every strategy to get her back, but all of them didn’t work. I kept searching online and learned that I had to use “No Contact” while change myself during No contact period. I tried very hard to keep no contact and during the same time , went to gym to workout and make changes to myself. I was very proud of my improvement. So one month later, I text her, emailed her. No reply. I was disappointed but still hold the hope that if I keep focusing on building up myself, she will come back in the future and I am quite patient. So one month again, and i started to call her. She didn’t answer. The next day she told me it was over. I didn’t give up and tried to text her one week later cuz i dreamed of her in the morning. The dream was that she finally come back to me. I really hoped that the dream would come true. But the next day, I received an astonishing msg, she told me that she was dating with someone else.

My world collapse. How could the guy pursue a fiancee of others? How could she dating with others just after 2 months’ break? Then I told myself She is not the one in my life. But i felt so bad during the past week and can’t concentrate on anything at hand. I ‘ve talked with my friends and family. They were all very nice and helpful. But I still feel great pain in my heart and I ‘m really worried about myself, cuz I will have several exams next week. All of my friends advised me to kill the hope and move on, which i did want to do. But I keep thinking of her everyday. Sometimes when I imagined that she was staying with another guy, I felt so miserable.

I invest all of my love into this relationship. I was happily telling everyone that she was my fiancee and we planned to marry after we graduated. I went abroad to pursue my higher education, mostly because of her. I treated her as my fiancee and really believe that we could get through all the difficulties and be together for our whole life. But she changed. She didn’t keep our promise that no matter what happened, we would get through together. She was selfish and determined. I don’t know where to go. Since this year is so important to me, I don’t want to ruin my study. But she used to be all my hope for the future. We planned a lot about our future life, detailed to how many dogs and how many children. I don’t know where to go. Maybe she was bluffing? But i don’t really want to check it.