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  • #136707
    Human
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    Hey everyone,

    First time post here — asking for help/advice/insight/perspective/etc…

    So, I recently (last week) broke up with my longterm girlfriend. We were together for 7 years. High school sweethearts etc. I’m 23 years old now.

    I truly love this women. She was my best-friend. I love and care about her unconditionally. Our relationship was perfect on paper. We shared the same interests, humor, likes/dislikes, yadayadayada…

    BUT…

    For some reason I didn’t feel fulfilled or satisfied at the end of the day. I wrestled with these feelings for months and months (we talked about my feelings too). And it wasn’t that I didn’t love her, because I genuinely did (and still do). But for some reason I felt a feeling of unhappiness and it ate away at me for a year until I finally worked up the courage to end it with her. It was by far the hardest thing I’ve ever had to do in my life.

    This is basically what I said and how I feel (I broke up with her in person, out of respect):

    “You’ve always given me 100% of your love, and I feel like I haven’t fully returned that. I try my hardest to treat you as special as you are, but at times I don’t give you the complete fulfilling love you should be getting in return from a committed relationship. I feel like I haven’t been there fully emotionally for you, and I don’t think it’s fair or right. As I’ve said before, I’ve been feeling confused/uncertain about things off and on for a while now. I’ve come to the possible realization that those feelings stem from my lack of life experience in general. I’ve got problems within myself that I have to deal with before anything else. In order to gain any understanding on anything, especially love, I think that I need to have context and experience to learn from. We’ve been together for a huge quarter of our young lives, and you’ve helped me grow so much (hopefully I’ve done the same for you), but I’ve also never really been single as a young man. We’ve grown dependently together, instead of growing independently as two — which I think is important for any relationship between two people. I think it would be healthy for both of us to get outside of our comfort zones and grow a bit independently at this stage of life. Since I don’t know anything outside of you, there’s always been a wedge driven through our relationship by me not understanding how meaningful it is. And this is basically all my fault. You’re truly an amazing women, with intoxicating physical and mental beauty, and real depth of personality. Every unique piece of you paints a beautiful picture. Unfortunately though, we’re still kids with minimal life experience. Timing is important and it sucks. I really don’t want to hurt you because I genuinely love you, but I know that I’m unfortunately breaking your heart either way — if we break up or if I just string you along half-assing it while I try to find myself. I know this is pretty selfish of me, but it’s how I feel. I seems like it’s important to learn from experience in order to truly love. Like knowing the sour to know the sweet. I’ve thought about this for a long time and there’s no fixing my problems without me going out on my own to do so. I still obviously want you to be in my life, and I’d still love to chill as best-friends. You’re undoubtedly one of my favorite humans on this planet. You’ll always be extremely important to me, and I’ll always care about you immensely. But, I imagine that we’ll probably need some time alone and apart to process everything. Anyways, I feel like I need to go out on my own for once. I feel like if I don’t do it now then I’m just suppressing things that will negatively materialize later in our relationship like they have been. In a way I feel like I’m emotionally cheating on you since I’m not 100% fully invested in our relationship because I don’t have any experience or knowledge of self. It’s not fair to you for me to have one foot in the door and one foot out at times. You deserve full love, not just someone who’s undecidedly hot and cold in their ignorance. I’m sorry, but it feels like I need to make an important decision for once in my life. I think breaking up for now would be the best thing for both of us in the long run, and hopefully we’ll possibly still be fundamental parts of each other’s future at some point. I’m sorry that my problems have led to this.”
    A quote that also helps explain myself:

    “I spent five years hurting a good woman by staying with her, but never fully choosing her.
    I did want to be with this one. I really wanted to choose her. She was an exquisite woman, brilliant and funny and sexy and sensual. She could make my whole body laugh with her quick, dark wit and short-circuit my brain with her exotic beauty. Waking up every morning with her snuggled in my arms was my happy place. I loved her wildly.

    Every day, for five years, I chose her a little less [though].

    Choosing her would have meant focusing every day on the gifts she was bringing into my life that I could be grateful for: her laughter, beauty, sensuality, playfulness, companionship, and so much more.

    I realize now, however, that she was often [anxious/scared/etc] because she didn’t feel safe with me. She felt me not choosing her every day, in my words and my actions, and she was afraid I would abandon her.

    Actually, I did abandon her.

    By not fully choosing her every day for five years, I deserted her.

    Like a precious fragrant flower I brought proudly into my home but then failed to water, I left her alone in countless ways to wither in the dry hot heat of our intimate relationship.

    Your loved one deserves to be enthusiastically chosen, every day.”

     

    NOW…

    I’m really struggling with feelings of regret and the sadness of missing her. I know it’s fresh and these emotions are natural, and my logical/rational mind thinks the break up was ultimately the right decision, but my heart aches…

    Anyways, that’s my story. Thanks for listening <3

     

    • This topic was modified 7 years, 9 months ago by Human.
    #136723
    Charles
    Participant

    Hello,

    This is my first post. But it caught my attention.

    The part of struggling with feelings and regrets its normal. It seems that you made a clear decision, explaining everything to her, something that in my opinion is really good. However, you must understand that this was your decision, and if you’re having second thoughts and let her know, you will only make her have false hopes and hurt her more.

     

    It’s normal to have this moments of life (I’m actually living it but from her perspective) and trust me, that it really hurts and everything that you tell her, text her, etc. she will over analyze it.

     

    In other terms, my opinion as someone dealing with feelings from her perspective is try to avoid to tell her anything that may led her to think you will get back together unless you want to do it.

     

    If you have any doubts about how she might be feeling, everyone is different, but I could try to describe it.

     

    Good luck.

     

    #136817
    Human
    Participant

    Thank you. Your perspective helps. And from someone in my position, I’m sorry you have to go through this from the other end as well.

    #137629
    Anonymous
    Guest

    Dear Human:

    What you said to her and my comments:

    “I’ve been confused/ uncertain.. I’ve come to the possible realization that those feelings stem from my lack of life experience”- I think the confusion and uncertainty stem from the life experience that you did have.

    “In order to gain any understanding on.. love, I think I need to have context and experience to learn from”-  the most important experience you have is that of your childhood relationships with your parents. Those were your Formative Years- you learned a lot then, past tense.

    “I don’t know anything outside of you”- yes you do, as I pointed to above. You don’t know a relationship with a girlfriend outside of her, but the most powerful relationship/s in your life have been in progress for two decades.

    “Actually, I did abandon her. By not fully choosing her every day… I deserted her. Like a precious fragrant flower.. I failed to water, I left alone in countless ways to wither in the dry hot heat”- is this a description of your childhood experience: were you abandoned, unchosen, left to wither?

    anita

    #147583
    Hannah
    Participant

    Hi new here , Just came across this and seems similar to a situation I am having with my boyfriend , recently I have had doubts about where we are both going but at the same time I love him and am afraid to let him go , Has this gotten easier for you ? I’m afraid of this being a regret for the rest of my life that I let him go and may never be able to get it back.

    #152222
    Brandon
    Participant

    I honestly don’t know if you’ll ever see this but I hope you do. I’d really like to talk to you. I’d been with my girlfriend for seven years as well (currently 22), and she has recently separated from me for what sounds like the exact same reason that you have separated from your partner. I don’t really know what I hope to get out of leaving a message here. I guess right now I’m struggling with the idea that the person who I’ve been with for almost half my life is now no longer there for me in the same way. I am struggling with the idea that she is moving on and I’m not. I guess I just want to hear more about your perspective; your story. I’ve felt quite alone the last couple of weeks, and seeing someone in a similar situation has given me some hope for the future. For now, I’m unsure of what the position my partner and I am in, but to me, it doesn’t seem good. She said she was not committed to me emotionally 100%, and that she wanted to develop herself more. I guess I’m also looking for some understanding, some insight. I hope you’ll get back to me somehow.

    #153920
    Samantha
    Participant

    I’m going through the same thing. I would love to talk more.

    #215729
    River04
    Participant

    hello, I know this is a post from a year ago, but I am currently in the same situation as you. I would like to know how it goes a year after. Do you still feel regret or did everything get better? I want to know your story so I can figure out what to do.  Hope you see this.  Thanks

    #224035
    Tots
    Participant

    I am also going through this and it is very confusing. I hurt everyday to not have my friend and lover and I get that I have to go through it all but I have yet to find someone in a such a similar situation and would love to be able to talk to someone about it. If anyone happens upon this and is going through very similar curcumstances and wants to talk message me on reddit (i am not sure how to PM on here) my userid is u/Tots0059.

    #322599
    MightyQuin
    Participant

    Hi all,

    I’m in a similar position as a few of you. I have just broken up with a beautiful women of 5.5 years because my heart wasn’t fully committed for a large majority of the reasons above. She is heart broken. It hurts so bad to hurt someone you care so deeply about without being able to fix the problem, because if you do you will only make things worse.

    I would love to know from those above who broke up with their partner, going on now years how they’re feeling?

    Hopefully you get pinged. If anyone reads this and they have someone they know who has been through this, I’d love to hear your story.

    #337534
    pansy
    Participant

    Hello there,

    its been 5 months since my boyfriend of 9 years has broken up with me, he was also my childhood sweetheart, i am now 23 nearly 24.

    we lived together and had a dog, our breakup didn’t exactly go down like yours but i feel ultimately it was for the same reasons, gradually he started to make less of an effort an became cold an in turn i grew bitter, he ended up kissing a coworker an ended things with me.

    ever since he has broken up with me he has cut off all contact an ignores me, this has been especially hard for me to process.

    i would love if someone could reassure me that things get better? i feel completely lost without him still, i cry most nights.  ive done my best to recover, spending time with my friends more, going back to college, doing more overtime in work an ive recently joined the gym but i still feel hopeless , i just want to feel at peace, if anyone could give me some words of comfort or advice i would really appreciate it x

    #351478
    Sam
    Participant

    Hi Pansy.
    Things will get better. Everything you experience is part of the adventure of life. All the times of your relationship are moments gained and a part of you. Nothing is wasted and you can continue on for new adventures

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    #352778
    Rejoice
    Participant

    A man cured me from Genital herpes Virus. He restored my relationship just in 72 hours,
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