This is the second part of my story.

Im still sturggling with my career path. As i said in my last post, i was a med student who became very depressed at the end. But i have come up with another doubt. The reason and not the reason, how i figured it out that i was feeling very depress was because i was dating someone. He knew lots of stuffs and he was pretty smart, also he was doing what i love, not doing exactly but he went to theatre school. And at the beggining of my relationship i was not feeling like i ended up feeling like. So horrible about my self. i could not even be with him because everytime he said something that i did not know or did something that i founded amazing or that i wanted to do but med school was not letting me, i felt like i wanted to die. This was an strange feeling, i feel like a block in my chest, like i was not going to be able to do anything because he was way more than me, as a person. I ended up my relationship and my career as well. It sound really stupid, but the way that i felt has been one of the most horrible feelings ever. Now that im not doing anything im afraid of making a choice, picking a new career, i the doubt that i have if im terrified of feeling the same again when im with someone, because this feeling was not only with him, there was days, and it still happening to me where i sit on a table, and i feel anxious because i think those people wont visualize me as smart o valuable, and that makes me feel horrible. The thing with my boyfriend was that it was more personal, because i was commited to him and thing were getting out of control.

i do not know if im afraid of feeling inferior or moving on and picking something new, freshing.

HELP.