Hi Guys,

I am not sure how to express the best on how i feel….. i dont know if I am being dramatic…..
I had a broken realtion when i was young, it was my first love…. from my teens i dreamt of a person in my life, love in my life, it used to be top and best of my dreams.
I met this person at work, he was a nice person and matured in thinking. I kept whole of my energy into this relation because it was dream come true. I wanted love in my life….
This relationship ended due to social issues from him…. i tried my best because it was my dream….

I used to dress my best as he made me feel I was special , I used to wake up every day and was thankful of happy day ahead, I used to sleep satisfied,,, life was beautiful then……. during last days of relation it was sleepless nights, anger and ruined feelings….. later I am healed to an extent ……and I still love the person ,
I am not attracted to him in any means now but its feeling of love for dear ones…………..
For me love never changes…. once i loved him i cannot hate him now…..Only thing i feel bad about him is he couldnt keep his promise but thats ok he chosse it for lack of options. I forgive him

I have moved on in life got married and now mother of young kid ..Now my relation is more of give and take a perfect practical relation……. I spend every minute of my day working, keep myself dead busy in my job, and as a mother ……………..

Deep down in my heart i lack the joy , I feel the loss ,,,,,,,,,

I am in this mode since couple of years…. now i dont look beautiful, i dont feel i am special , i feel i am lost.

What is this happening to me…. what have i lost.

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