Thanks Big Blue. It is good to hear from someone who really knows what it like to go through this. I wish I was one of those people who rebounded quickly from a marriage breakdown but I wasn’t able to do that. It seems like I would take a step forward then I take a couple back. I had done a number of the things on the list already. I guess things just take time and I have to keep trying to move forward. One thing that will probably never happen again is her and I talking together.

Thank-you Jasmine. I appreciate your kind words. I think everyone is seeking love and I think I miss having a connection with someone special. It would probably help if I showed myself a little love first. I can’t rely on someone else to give it to me first. The year I didn’t know why things seemed off in my marriage, I felt less and less love and caring towards me. It became emotionally crippling to pushed aside by someone you thought cared about you.

Also, there are tons of single women of all ages everywhere, in my surrounding area and beyond. I think it is just the adjustment to online dating. For several years, I wasn’t a social butterfly. I was always with my boys and it is almost challenging to interact with other adults. One thing I think I am realizing is that I am not giving off the right kind of positive energy that attracts people to me.

Hey Jasmine,

I have been working on being more conscious of my inner voice and what I let it tell me. Everything has been a work in progress and I know things have to turn around eventually. I spent my last year of marriage being told what a bad person I was. Until I finally left it behind, I worked at a place with some of the most negative and mean spirited people you could ever meet. I let the outside world wear me down and I shouldn’t have. There was a time when I would brush off people like that. I was positive in the face of any adversity, and that is where I will be again.

Thanks again for the positive words.