Hello again guys.

I’ve really had trouble letting this instance go, and it happened about 10 months ago! While logically, I know it is best to let go (and agree with the sentiments given on this forum), I’m finding it near impossible (I have moments of relief, but it still feels tattooed in my mind). This might sound odd, but is it possible to suffer from some MILD case of PTSD from negative events in our lives (break ups, failure, disappointment, etc.?) I seemed to repress the negativity for many months (attributing it to outside causes, and not my own doing so much). This stays in my head pretty much every second of every day – exceptions being when having fun with friends on the weekend. I think it really started to stick around April – when she came back to our school after a leave of absence – and I had been single for some time, and in need of companionship. Not to mention, the feeling of failure (as a man, and a teacher) by having a student dislike me because of a bad class.

My mom had a serious depressive episode as a young adult due to a romantic regret, which she felt “required” medication and therapy (neither of which I’m interested in).

I SHOULD mention that some of the stress is multiplied by the fact that I’m in the middle of writing a dissertation, which I have been really struggling to do because of constant feelings depression and regret. My sleep has also been very poor (getting about 3 or 4 hours a night it seems).

Though I have good things going on in my life, I can only seem to focus on this at the moment. It’s driving me a little nuts.

Thanks,

Steve