I’ve never been a person to voice, well, anything. I tend to keep things quiet, and I am starting to think it may be because of anxiety from what others think. I started a blog a month ago, I don’t have anyone following me on it and that isn’t too much of a problem. I haven’t shared it with my friends or family. But I feel like I spend a long time making posts when nobody reads them. Part of this is me not doing a good job with advertising my blog, but I feel like I am in a circle, because as much as I would like people to read my blog, I feel vulnerable sharing it with others.

My blog is not based on personal content, it is kind of an educational blog (though I will be posting experiences eventually), but it is personal to me. I don’t know if I can take criticism well. I know a lot of people who are very smart and know the material better than me and I would feel bad if they were rude about it. So I have not advertised it on my facebook or in groups because I don’t want anyone I know to see it.

I feel like I am letting my anxiety of people hearing my voice get in my way a bit. I have thought about blogging anonymously, but I know that it wouldn’t take much for someone I know to tell it is me based on the photos I use (photos I take myself).

My blog’s audience isn’t entirely aimed at professionals in the topic or my friends, it’s the beginners who want to learn more or don’t know too much and want to get started and to inspire people to be more adventurous. I do not know how to reach them besides the fb groups that I am in (and that some of my friends are in).  I tried twitter too but I am struggling with followers.

In all honesty, I am not sure why I am blogging. Maybe it is to help people learn and share my experience. It is mostly because my family keeps saying I should blog because I am knowledgeable in the subject and have interesting experiences.  I love the subject, but to be honest I don’t enjoy the blogging too much.

Am I letting anxiety get in the way of voicing what I have to say? How do I not feel anxiety about people reading my blogs and thinking critically? How do I not feel bad that I don’t have anyone reading my blog?  Is it better to blog anonymously? Should I just not blog?