Anita, I was thinking the same: your daily routine has changed (and it was not your choice to make).  It’s not nice, I guess.

And I am sure you miss your daily walks  – even for me, reading about them gave me comfort! I hope you can soon return to this routine. Glad it’s getting better! 🙂

feel free to share your thoughts at any time, when you feel like it. We can take breaks from talking about particular things, then go back to them, and we can bring up new things.

Thank you. I like those ideas (taking a break, going back and bringing up new ones). I think I will share them soon.

I am feeling a smile on my face as I am typing this, which is only the 2nd smile in the last few days

Very nice message to brighten my tiring-and-not-routine-at-all day 🙂 (I work from home – which I love, and once in a while I need to work in the office – today was this day).

Anita,

Regardless of whether you post again today, I want to update you later about how my day went (here, it is early afternoon) because it makes me look forward to hopefully update you about my progress today!

please do! I usually check couple times a day whether you posted unless I am away or busy working (or sleeping of course).

Keeping my fingers crossed for your well being.

Update: in the three hours since I posted the above, for the first time in three days, I completed my exercise daily routine (not including the walk), and I did a lot of housework (it was a 3 days added mess), I am pleased!

anita

Dear Joanna:

Thank you, and yes: finally sleeping on a thoroughly clean bed (mattress cover, bedsheets, blankets, all clean and changed) feels good, plus not having a pile of laundry waiting to be folded and put away… a good thing. But I woke up too early this morning, tried to doze off, gave up, had coffee and as you can see, here I am!

I hope that you are working from home today, since you said you prefer it to working in the office.

anita

Dear Joanna: I’ll be back to you later, in a few hours or Fri morning!

anita

Anita,

a bit of social anxiety? Did you receive nice Christmas presents?

The presents were nice, meetings felt very professional, nothing festive about them. I guess that’s how it is. I like my work, not all parts of it but I feel lucky. However, I don’t think I would be able to work in the office among people. Can’t focus and I have trouble remembering what someone told me/sent me in this environment, even the non-work stuff.

when alone too long, it gets lonely, doesn’t it?

It does. I choose alone, though. I have been more and more aware of my tics, ashamed of it. I don’t like calling with camera on, let alone meeting in person.

I apologize if I seem not very positive today.

How are you feeling, Anita?

Anita,

again, commonality between you and I

It does feel less lonely to know this. And not only that, a lot of different emotions: happy and glad you are there (and here), sad you feel this way too. Less lonely for sure.

 At times it feels… like we are the same person!

perfectly fine with me! (Can we say we are sisters? I never had one)

A neighbor knocked on the door an hour ago with Christmas cookies on a plate.. nice.

Such a nice neighbor. Enjoy the cookies! Glad you’re feeling better and planning to go outside.

Anita,

I like the exclamation points (still hesitant to use them myself but I must say they give a nice tone).

I would have shared the cookies with you, if you were here… and I’d go on a walk with you…!

Thank you, Anita, makes me happy you feel that way. I would have shared my work chocolate box with you (if you were there) and go for a walk together.

Yesterday I went for a 3 km walk (did not feel like it, it was freezing, snowing, already dark after 4 pm but I had to go to get the parcel) and thought for a moment about how you shared details from your walks. I even took some pictures, it was a nice and refreshing.

It’s 00:30 at night so I will return tomorrow. Have a good day, Anita.