Dear Heartbrokengurl:
Welcome back, good to read from you.
I am thinking, because of the persistence of your anxiety, the persistence of your worrying that a man will withdraw from you and how much of a torture it is for you (“This anxiety of mine is such torture”)-
why not assume this man will not call you, or that if he will call again, then he will not be interested in a relationship with him, or that if he will express an interest, that a relationship will be short and end soon enough.
This has been the reality of your dating life most often, hasn’t it? So why not adjust your expectations to what you already experienced?
It is often recommended to be positive, to have positive expectations. But it is not always a good idea. When a person is as persistently anxious as you are and have been for so long, better adjust to the reality of your anxiety and the reality that men have withdrawn from you before, repeatedly.
If it works out with this man, let it be a surprise. A very pleasant surprise.
anita