Hi Wildoceanflower,

I hope you and Anita don’t think I am intruding, but I have been reading your posts and can really relate. I too, can’t seem to get over someone I met back in September. And the sad part is, is that I met him online. I fell so hard for him. We webchatted, he was the first person I talked to in the morning and the last person I talked to at night. Although I did not have physical contact with him, I invested alot of time in him. Then I broke things off, because I was investing more energy on him, then he was with me. I felt he was just using me to get to the states. I don’t think he loved me like he said and kept me hidden on his friends list on his profile page. There was an age difference, I was quite a bit older than him, but he said he liked older woman, anyway, I think the whole thing was a lie and he led me on and I fell for it.

I think about him constantly. I think about the what ifs. Shortly after, I had a bad car accident, and I am now on disability. I live in a small town with few friends and no family. Its difficult for me to meet new people. I spend most of my days at Dr’s offices. Or at occupational and physical therapy. My life has come to a standstill. I used to go dancing, bowling, animal welfare, volunteer with animals, had a beautiful car, lots of friends, a wonderful life. Then I lost my Dad, and I haven’t been the same since his death and my accident. So, with all this time on my hands, I think about this loser guy, from another country who treated me like I didn’t matter to him and he did not share his life with me.