I met this guy on tinder a few months back. There was an instant connection on his end (secretly on mine too). I was incredibly closed off but still he was smitten and drawn to me. I knew I liked him from the beginning and that scared me.

Anyway we finally met in person and I would say it was love at sight for me. Of course he didn’t know that. We had a great first date. I ended up at his place (classy I know lol) Nothing really happened except making out.

Second date: We had sex. I knew we were. I really wanted to. I really liked him and he liked me. Before we had sex i disclosed that I have HSV2. He was okay with it.

FYI- No condoms were ever used (Stupid)

We started seeing each other every week. 1-2 times. I was still somewhat closed off but a tad bit more open. I met his daughter. She liked me. She would ask about me.

I told him I wanted to see him more and he totally agreed.

From one day to the next(LITERALLY), things were different. I brought it up and that’s when he told me that he experienced symptoms for HSV2. I was so upset for him. He wanted space. I took it sooo personal. I didn’t see him as much. But we were still in contact. I was super hot and cold about keeping contact. After a month or so I noticed things weren’t changing. So i broke up with him. It may seem insensitive because he thought he had gotten an STD but the communication on his end just wasn’t there. I am an understanding person, but i wasnt getting anything!

I recently found out that he didn’t get HSV2 and that his being clean is NOT whats keeping him from me.

We still stayed in contact. He wanted to stay friends, I was on the fence about that.

We wouldn’t speak for a month and I would initiate contact. Then we would go another month without speaking and again I would initiate contact. That has been going on for months. I feel kind of stupid cause his behavior is clearly telling me he doesn’t care. But he will tell me that he misses me. That I’m great and terrific. I dont get it.

I till this day am shocked and confused about what happened. He asked me to be his GF he wanted the relationship. I feel like he knocked on the door and when I opened no one was there. So when I initiate contact after some time its to see where his head is at, because I would like to be with him. When he isnt distant and aloof hes really a great guy. It’s not like me to chase after a man. It never has been. But this guy has me hooked.

FYI, we broke up in April. I have NOT stopped living my life. I have dated/dating. Going to the gym and whatnot, but I cant get over him.

I asked him out for drinks. Was that stupid of me? AM I WASTING MY TIME? DO I LOOK RIDICULOUS?