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December 20, 2015 at 3:54 pm #90031AnonymousGuest
Dear who:
Is that right, who, do you mean it? You know how difficult it is… now I wonder if you are sincere. Because you said you lie to people. Now, how do I know?
Going for a long walk. Will be back later:
anitaDecember 20, 2015 at 7:23 pm #90050whoParticipantI’m not sure on what you mean Anita? meaning the it?
So I had pasted and copied one of my lines, which is at the very start of this covo.Yes I do understand trust can be misleading, because of me being a liar.
But weather you want to believe me or not, it doesn’t matter. I only say this because1) I don’t know you!
2) I came on this website at my own free will, to expressed myself and real life situations to people that I don’t even know. Who might judge me or even miss guide me with words. But nevertheless I have been nothing but truthful to all.
Even admitting my own mistakes and flaws.
3) Not once did I write anything to make me look like a (Martyr)
4) I told you and to who ever read my post, that Yes! I still do lie, when it comes to my peers, ex work mates, and females that question me about money, work, or if I have any kids.So I really don’t know where all of this came from, meaning you!
this is what you wrote: Is that right, who, do you mean it? You know how difficult it is… now I wonder if you are sincere. Because you said you lie to people. Now, how do I know?To answer this: when I said it”….. (I was talking about, speaking the truth even if it’s uncomfortable for me).
Meaning about my not having a job, my son, and being broke. Nothing less nothing more. That’s all I was talking about.
Then you say that you don’t know if I’m being (sincere) with you, I was… and I am…It kinda sucks that you would even feel this way about me, when I never done anything to you but post!
It’s easy for people to “assume” and “analyze” but it doesn’t always mean it’s true.Example: I’m assuming that by the way you talk or word things, you are really not a troubled person. But a person who is pretending to be troubled, when actuality you are really a Psychologist just doing research on people with real issues.
Example: Or I could assume that you are a person who pretends to be nice, but only looks at flaws in people, just to throw them in their faces.
Only examples.
But the truth is that I don’t believe you are any of those things.
To speak, ask and get answers, that’s what I’m here on Tiny Buddha for! Growth.. Not to argue! if I wanted that, I’d just go out into the real world.I have nothing but respect! for you and all on here! because it takes courage to speak about serious things.
Much Love and hope to hear from you soon.December 20, 2015 at 7:40 pm #90053AnonymousGuestDear who:
Wow, you care so much about what I wrote above? My goodness. I had no idea you would take it to heart. I was suspicious of you when I wrote the post you are referring to. I thought you were kind of making fun of me writing that you will now go about healing. That is in the post on page one (don’t have it in front of me). I thought YOU were making fun of ME. I thought you were pointing a finger at me, laughing at me. And you thought, in your last post, that I was pointing a finger at you calling you a liar.
Well, there we go. Isn’t it amazing? Often enough the world is indeed cruel, like you wrote. But some of the times, it is about inaccurate projections. Meaning, I ask you, in the last post on page one you were NOT making fun of me?
anita
December 20, 2015 at 7:52 pm #90064AnonymousGuestDear who:
I am sorry. I will not suggest you lie in here again. Sorry for your hurt feelings. Please come back and post.
anitaDecember 20, 2015 at 7:59 pm #90068jockParticipantI don’t want to see who go?
who, that’s who.
come back who.
Who:
You mentioned something about you feeling patronised by people because of your lack of status. I can relate to that. That is one of the worst aspects of having no leverage, a lowly status position in life. As I get older and just hold down the occasional entry level job for a few months or years, I notice a gradual erosion of self-belief, and lack of respect from others. Notice how the successful guy gets the rapt audience? People hang on to his every word whereas Jaundiced Jack, is more often than not the butt of others people’s jokes. “poor old Jack, just give him the sack!”December 20, 2015 at 8:14 pm #90076AnonymousGuestYes, I would hate to see who disappear from the site. All these threads and back and forth… I am really hoping, was hoping for a longer … relationship here, exchanges with who.
I feel sad. You were shining here, who, most so with the newest thread about the Bucket List. I was always honest with you, who. Even when I suspected you were mocking me when you typed you were going to heal (end of page one)= all the way through, and now too. Please come back.
anitaDecember 20, 2015 at 8:22 pm #90082whoParticipantTo: Anita I am truly sorry! I was not laughing at you nor making fun. All I met is that Now I can dig in deep from what you have told me, and start trying to heal myself. I just want to happy and never be a stumbling block to anyone!
In my post from the start to end I was just being honest, and sharing my story!
Even though I don’t know you and Jack. I feel that I can learn a lot from you two, and maybe even have a type of bonding online through Tiny Buddha…
It’s all water under the bridge far as I’m concerned.. Love You guys! and hope to read, hear, and share in many more post to come! peace.December 20, 2015 at 8:25 pm #90083whoParticipantAnd Thanks Jack for sharing! believe it or not you matter all of us do!
December 20, 2015 at 8:31 pm #90085AnonymousGuestDear who:
Glad to read your latest post! Water under the bridge is good. (relief). Thank you for the words… Love, love that word, hard for me to use it. Feel your sentiment and I believe it is mutual. I am honest here. You are honest here. And Jack, yes, he is honest. Love honest (and I used the word!)
Bedtime for me, early, only 8:30 pm Sunday. It is 12:30 pm Monday in Australia where Jack and his panting dog may be at this time, or on the way (hi Jack, like the new word, Jack the unnice) and in Louisiana it is 11:30 pm, Sunday night. Keeping record. Till tomorrow, good night/ good day-
anitaDecember 20, 2015 at 8:33 pm #90086AnonymousGuestI mean on the beach in Australia.
December 20, 2015 at 9:22 pm #90100jockParticipantI’m honest
So honest I can’t even tell my dog a lie
“Hey Rover. If you sit down here and be a nice boy
I’ll give you a huge bone”
Well OK, the bone wasn’t so big. You could argue I told a lie there.
I’m transparent, invisible, you can see right through me.I have no skeletons in the closet
The people I murdered (skeletons) are buried in the backyard.That was an attempt at black/dark humour. Did I succeed? Or have I turned you off Jack for ever?
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December 21, 2015 at 7:00 am #90123AnonymousGuestDear Jack:
You succeeded. No skeletons in the closet; all in the backyard. Excellent, says I!
And the size of the bone promised to your dog, if I was Rover I would hold you responsible for your promise with a measuring tape in paw.
anita
December 21, 2015 at 4:40 pm #90178whoParticipantThanks for the support Anita and Jack!
Love the sense of humour. You can’t see me but I’m laughing from ear to ear…
Just as Anita, I agree on if I was dog I’d have a measuring tape and tape recorder in paw!Wait! did I just say tape recorder?…just gave my age away, dammmm! I’m getting old.
Which brings me to another post, that I might do, on the (Fun Forum)Hope all is going well for you guys and to all who read these post peace!
December 21, 2015 at 5:16 pm #90182jockParticipantwho….. that’s a great username
how?
what?
where?
why?
when?I think “why” is my favourite question but “who” is THE ultimate meaning of life question?
WHO am I?
Yes I’m an old overweight Aussie who is barely employable but who am I really?
I am a figment of my imagination.
That’ll do for now.December 21, 2015 at 6:31 pm #90197AnonymousGuestDear who:
I enjoyed my own joke enriched with your tape recorder addition. At 37, you could be my son, if I had you at 18. This is how old I am. But, about age, I say it to myself every evening: all I have is this evening and this night and maybe tomorrow morning. This is all I ever have and this is all I will ever have, every evening, just this evening… and maybe the morning after.
Jack loves to play with words. “An overweight Aussie…” Hilarious.
I like the username, who. I might be the only person on this site with my real name as my username.
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