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August 8, 2013 at 11:36 am #39983
John
ParticipantIf I understood the sketch correctly:
– 3 months passed since you’re last co-dependent relationship
– your new relationship starts with your boyfriend “taking care” of you after surgery
– you feel like your physical needs may be a burden on him (you’re worried about him self-sacrificing to meet your needs)
– if he had surgery, you would take care of him (you would self-sacrifice to meet his needs)
– when you’re boyfriend is not available this causes you distress and you feel alone or lonelyI’m not sure, but I’m thinking there’s still some unhealthy attachment on both sides. You thrive on your boyfriend taking care of you and your boyfriend enjoys being the knight in shining armor at your time of need, except when real life gets in the way and your needs are not meant resulting you to turn on the other person who you expect to be the source of your comfort and happiness.
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August 8, 2013 at 12:48 pm #39988SerCay
ParticipantHi John,
No I’ve been with him for almost 3 years now, I worked in the co-dependency apart from my relationship….
The thing is, I NEVER physically need him, and then when I do once in a blue moon I get pissed he is so unavailable..
I totally get what you’re saying, but it’s so annoying to be with someone that is more UNavailable than he is available
He makes me doubt my common sense
August 8, 2013 at 1:17 pm #39990John
ParticipantIn that case, I retract my statement. I misunderstood the scenario you were describing.
The only other thing that I would react to is this notion of keeping score, “more UNavailable than he is available”.
What if, when he is available, he is simply available, and when he’s not available, he’s simply not available. If we stop tracking numbers and setting up implicit expectations what someone should or should not be, there’s so much less churn. 😉
August 8, 2013 at 1:18 pm #39991August 8, 2013 at 2:36 pm #40003Matt
ParticipantSerCay,
I only have a moment, forgive the brevity.
Consider that the codependency isn’t in the feelings… its in the fear that has prevented you from stating your preferences. For instance, if you wanted to lay down with him, did you say that? Did you ask him to wait to eat? Often our expectations can’t be met if we don’t express them, and then we get pissed off our partner is not psychic.
He may also feel a little strained, have you asked him if he is feeling burdened? Are you too afraid he will say yes? Would you assume that “SerCay” is the burden, rather than the situation both of you are in?
Recovery is part perception and part courage. Seeing our feelings and how they interfere, and the courage to speak up about what we think, see, feel and desire.
With warmth,
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