I am in a very similar situation right now. My boyfriend and I broke up after 2 years. He dumped me because he said we weren’t right for each other and he wasn’t happy. A few weeks later, after we had both been with other people and I had tried multiple times to get him to give me another chance, he wanted to give me another chance. Lol. I said yes, and then a few months later he proposed to me. I’m only 19 and it was in front of a group of people; part of me wanted to say no but I couldn’t. So we were engaged. My boyfriend is a very possessive, jealous, and insecure person and he began to yell at me every couple of weeks for what happened when we were apart even though he did the same thing and he was the one who broke up with me. I finally got sick of being treated like dirt 75% of the time and I dumped him. Two days later he called me crying begging for me back and told me he would change and would change his lifestyle to fit mine. But things don’t feel right now that we are back together. I don’t want him to have to change for me. I want to see the world, he hates traveling. Things like this just make me wonder whether he is the right fit for me. I’m happy when I’m with him, like you are with your boyfriend. When we are apart I have doubts, just like you. I’m also ready to leave him at any sign of him returning to his old self, like you.

As Al said, OUR happiness is what’s most important. Not to say our boyfriend’s aren’t, it’s a catch 22 really. But anyways, you need to sit and think about what you want. Get some time away from him so you can really just let your emotions sink in. This is what I’m going to do because I am in the same situation. Life is so short and there is so much to do, and if you can’t see a future with someone should you waste your time and theirs anymore? It’s not so easy to answer or take action on, I know. Our gut usually knows what is right, and if it is telling you that you would be happier being more of an individual and not being “tied down” by someone then maybe you already know the answer.
My neighbor told me before I broke up with my boyfriend that I didn’t have to do it right then, that I have time to think and decide what I want. You have time. Think hard on it and do what is best for you. If you end up being able to see a future with him and being happy then stay! If not, you have to decide what to do. Love yourself and put yourself first!

If you need someone to talk to or need advice I am here!

Namaste,

Nicole

I know how you feel lol. I wish things weren’t complicated either but as humans we just have a habit of making things that way.
Just don’t settle, keep feeling it out and if you continue to have doubts in the next few months I would say that’s your gut telling you it’s not for you, but that’s for you to decide. I think that’s what I’m going to do.

And I definitely understand the bit about forgetting your needs and the things you like doing! A lot. I had forgotten that too until recently. I really enjoy painting and drawing and I hadn’t done it in almost a year or year and a half because I was so wrapped up in the relationship, work and school.
Also you are on point with realizing you can live without him. Break ups are so painful but life goes on. As we get older and time goes on we realize what we need from our significant other more than we did before. It kind of sucks realizing it and already being in a relationship lol.

Hope things are going well!

Nicole