Hi,
I was diagnosed with ADHD last march after many years of failing to solve the problem by avoiding the problem. I couldn’t finish anything even the process of getting a diagnosis. 8 years in the know suspicion, sad I know.
I am keen to know if anyone out there was diagnosed in adulthood and how the process affected there lifestyle mainly work? How to judge the treatments and is it a long term improvements thing or should notice difference immediately?
You see, I am good a certain things but I’ve learned I am very compulsive even impulsive and a diagnosis was a great sense of relief personally knowing myself better but I’ve noticed it has to the outsiders had a negative impact on me and work. I think it was anxiety that got me through before up really late last minute to get tasks completed which ruined friendships relationships and caused me to be stressed and irritable in work with co workers. I see now all the coping mechanisms I had and feel I am now no longer hiding anything.

I soon realised that particular work wasn’t for me so went back to study and over time changed my career and was successful at entrepreneurial activities. However once the diagnosis came I have taken a back seat. I mean literally. No interest always saying ah why put myself through that stress. Positives in relations but not in actions. You see I used to enter lots of competitions almost fearless with a distorted view of what I was doing. To others this was success but I was anxious inside. Now I feel a calm inside and inactive with a risk of losing everything. I recently started a new career and i am near losing it all with extensions deadlines overdue etc and before it was anxiety that kicked me in to gear in the end now I have nothing but ah well why stress.

I stopped medication to go back to the way I was saying at least I’ve realised I am me and I have finally accepted that but instead i did not go back to me! I am as I was but without the anxiety. Now I have no treatment and no function. Either. I guess any medication affects our bodies and our brains wiring.
I am scared and I don’t know what to do. I have been feeling very low and not caring about anything.
My fiends are worried about me as I seem to have given up when there are so many opportunities starring me in the face. I was once a “bold” character, an eager beaver! For awhile I thought it will take time to settle but it is now and it is now that I will Lose all with nothing waiting for me as I sit looking in.

You see I want to be loving have empathy all that normal people are expected to have and do wish for a loving relationship and family some day but not being able to succeed is killing me. I was introvert during times of my symptoms and the gain has been awareness of my impact on others but what good is this if I can’t look after myself.

I wonder has anyone else experienced issues with medication and how to work it out. I was issued one type and basically asked for feedback and thought if it improves personal than its a winner, but now I see it only looked at half the picture and I really didn’t know how to rate it until now. After all this I just want myself back as I can’t do any job at the moment. Not following through on anything. I am afraid to try any other medications because I wonder why I am not as I was without any.

Any advice would be much appreciated. Thank you.