It’s been about 3 weeks of non communication between neighbor guy and I and I still feel horrible and miss him. I still love him.

I don’t know how to move on or if I ever can. . Some people are unable to move on no matter the length of time.

It doesn’t help that we live in close proximity to one another and today was another day that I witnessed another woman in his place of residence.  She had sleep attire on, and I am certain that I saw him and her kiss and spoon.

I guess all he ever told me in regards to us being and building a life together was a lie. I really wish that he had meant everything he told me.

I was hoping that he was a good guy and finally the one who wouldn’t use and hurt me like the rest..but he did.

I guess I was used Yet again for someone’s ego boost. My past relationships have all been the same..

Someone with very little self confidence and esteem,  sweeping me off my feet and giving me empty promises..only to ghost me.. and somehow very quickly gaining esteem getting into another relationship,  and quickly marrying that person.

Like I am a practice person.

I’m guess I’m the one who they practice “perfecting” their “game on”.

Tremendously.

I was probably right about him only fetishizing  me. His preference seems to be women who is of a certain descent …same as he.

Is there a chance that he could have still meant everything he said to me and really was into me??

Tbh, I often think about catching him coming home allegedly from work and talking to him. I honestly think about caving in all of the time.

It’s extremely difficult to move on.