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July 8, 2015 at 6:51 pm #79529
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GuestThank you, Healing Bear, for sharing. I have questions but I don’t know if it is part of the protocol of the category “share your truth”. I know in 12 step groups, people share but don’t do Q & A- let me know if I can ask you questions about your journey, would like to learn more.
anitaJuly 9, 2015 at 3:32 am #79561Paul Hellwig
ParticipantAnita,
Thank you for commenting on my post.I welcome questions from anyone reading my post.
July 9, 2015 at 4:43 am #79565Red Car
ParticipantI’m glad that you are proactive in taking care of yourself and that you are continuing to heal! I hope that you continue your journey and that you know that you are a blessing to others.
July 9, 2015 at 6:50 am #79566Anonymous
GuestDear Healing Bear:
Good morning, and thank you again for sharing. I re-read your post and thoughtfully formed my questions below. I am hoping to learn MORE from you and will very much appreciate your thoughtful replies:
1) Are you a man or woman?
2) What form of sexual abuse did you suffer by your mother? (I don’t need details necessarily but some idea of what it means, how it affected you, length of time it happened…)
3) Do you have currently contact with your mother? Your father?
4) Did you consider ending contact with your mother? Your father? What were your thoughts (pros and cons perhaps) about it?
5) Given your mother sexually abused you, was there any “working through it” with her, confrontation of the issue, resolution, restitution?
6) You wrote that at 12 step meetings and on you learned, for the first time, how to have relationships based on honesty (not based on lies and manipulation) and integrity. If you still have a relationship with your mother, is she honest with you- did she change from the way she was? Did you change together? What is the nature of your relationship with her: is it based on honesty and integrity?
7) At this stage of your healing (you are 55 I figure, about my age), what are the “leftovers” of your troubled childhood and life still in operation in your mind? Do you get easily agitated, anxious, troubled, depressed… ? Or is it a “happily ever after” kind of existence at this point? I healing ongoing or are you in a maintenance stage?anita
July 10, 2015 at 12:18 pm #79625Paul Hellwig
ParticipantAnita,
From your questions I get the feeling that you are some one that works in the field. I hope that these questions are not part of research or for an article or paper. With that said, I will answer your questions on a level I am comfortable with engaging someone I don’t know.
I am a man. My mothers abuse of me was sexual, physical, emotional and physiological. I happened from age 5-15. The physical part of the sexual abuse and the physical abuse only lasted about 2 years. The emotional and physiological part of sexual abuse lasted until I was 15.
My mother passed away over 20 years ago and I still have weekly contact with my father.
I did end contact with my mother at times. First due to her drinking as I was in recovery and then as I began working on the abuse. I did not end contact with my father though there were times when it became infrequent. Working on the issues I had him that stemmed from the abuse and neglect were harder to wrap my brain around but easier to work through.
I am mostly in a maintenance stage. Sometimes low self-esteem or emotional eating rear there ugly heads. But I catch them pretty quickly and have the tools to deal with them.
July 10, 2015 at 12:55 pm #79629Anonymous
GuestDear Healing Bear:
No, I do not work in the field. Actually I do not work at all, not since 2010. I am in the process of healing myself from severe abuse and ended my contact with my mother two years ago. There is a lot more I want or wanted to know then what is in your share. It is an amazing story that you share, yet there is so little that I have learned from your story. One of the things I am very curious about is how adults who have been abused maintain a relationship with the abuser, a parent, often. You wrote that you ended contact with your mother at times and I would have wanted to know more… how were you able to have contact with her when you did, as an adult, was there any resolution with her before she died… Share if you would like, otherwise, best to you.
anitaJuly 10, 2015 at 2:49 pm #79636Paul Hellwig
ParticipantAnita,
The questions that you asked me were about the parts of my story that has only been shared with people that I have come to trust and that would understand. They felt invasive and I became defensive. It also has taught me a great lesson. If I want to help people to heal from the wounds of their childhoods, I need to talk about these more personal aspects of my recovery. I have a lot on my plate this weekend, but when I get the time I will be more open and forthcoming as I try to answer your questions. I will leave you with this Love can transcend and heal all things. Love is the hardest thing for us to egt back to but get back to it we must. The journey is to reclaim our love, the love that we came into this world with. I have a blog on my coaching website if you are interested healinbearlifecoaching.com
July 10, 2015 at 3:09 pm #79637Anonymous
GuestThank you, Healing Bear: I will look at your blog and will look forward to your next post. I hope you share what you feel comfortable sharing in this forum. There are things I am uncomfortable sharing, absolutely. I think that if I am asked and if I believe I can be helpful by sharing such, I will. But it is a risk. Even writing you the above, asking you the questions and telling you I cannot learn without more- that was risky and I was afraid of a hostile reaction from you. I often am afraid of hostile reactions from others. Risking is scary for me. I hope sharing more here will be even more healing for you… I can’t perceive healing of severe abuse or life without love can be a final destiny of living “happily ever after.” I see healing as an ongoing journey. In this mindset, I hope that sharing here and that everything you do is part of your own journey.
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