Thank you Jasmine! I just read this and I have to say I believe that you’re right. I’m going to make sure I do things for me from now on, and not because somebody wants me to.

Hey Big Blue,

I suppose there are ways for me to travel; I have friends that are all over the country. As a matter of fact, I had my car packed up with all of my belongings last week (including my guitars and my favorite amp) because I was interested in just straight up getting away from this environment. However, I honestly don’t know if that would fix the problem. I know that I have to finish what I’ve started (i.e. the master’s thesis), and I know I need something temporary to generate income. The problem is is that I’m just lazy and unmotivated at this point. It’s like the combinations of the circumstances I’ve mentioned (yes, I’m still lamenting over that breakup as well) has left me in a static state.

I think the only thing for me to do is to write about all of this stuff in an honest manner. I need to force myself out of apathy and get the ball rolling otherwise I won’t be able to bounce back the way I know I can. Other people have definitely been here before, which is why I think this website is really an awesome idea.