Hi Anita,

Too cute thinking of Bogart and his snores.

For the most part I am not in contact with the main ones who trigger me. My Aunt has texted. I texted her on her B-day. My niece’s Mother also texts, usually just photos and updates on my niece. I do not think they will trigger me.

Grief is something else lol. Like a whirlwind.
I am definitely making progress and peace with the pain inflicted on me. On most days I can understand the pain they must be in to act the way they did. It is constantly having to remind myself that even though I sympathize it does not mean I re-engage and go through that again. Constantly reminding myself of what I am and am not responsible for. To be honest even though there are days like today, where I feel a bit lousy and drained, I have otherwise been enjoying this journey and acceptance stage of my life. My responses to my own feelings and triggers seem more stable than ever. I am grateful for that.

Implementing new connections is my new goal, and has been lol.
I am hoping being back in a work place gives me the momentum to want to get back into society. Not necessarily at work, as I have had my fair share of workplace drama and intend to simply show up, do my work and leave. But being there and overcoming social anxiety hopefully fuels me to go out and enjoy new experiences.

I am sorry to hear about your sciatica. I have had mine flare up in the past and it can be debilitating. Like you, this mostly occurred while sitting for long periods at work. How are you feeling this week? Have you found anything that helps the pain?