Thank you all so much for your responses.

I really appreciate this!

I keep on going over in my mind the things I did wrong in her life. Her claws are the one thing that keep on staying in my mind, it’s the idea that she was in discomfort with them that is too much to handle at the moment. Even when I knew they could do with clipping, it was one of those things where I would think I’ll do it soon, putting it off because I knew she hated having them done. Why I didn’t just find another way, or have them removed when she was a puppy is beyond me now. Her life and happiness where entirely in my hands, her life could have been perfect if I’f just made more of an effort.

Animals suffering is so against my own moral code, it has been since I was a very young child! I adore making them feel safe and secure and happy, the idea that my own Dog could have been suffering is torturous. Especially since her claws are something I was aware of, but just would postpone longer than I knew I should of.

I know she was happy, she would often do a happy dance in the arm chair or bed (Which consisted of her being belly up rolling around and snuggling her face in the bed/sofa) although the past month or two of her life, she actually didn’t do that, which makes me worry now what if she was suffering?I didn’t think too much of it at the time but her demeanour did change, and I even commented the day before she died that she seemed down in the dumps.

I agree Anita, I am truly having a really bad time accepting that she is gone, I cannot believe it, I miss her intensely, the thought that I can never hug or or stroke her again too much.

I do want to adopt another Dog, but feel too guilty to. I feel guilty because I will obviously not make the same mistakes twice but this feels horrendous as my beautiful Dog was so much more than just something to be learned from, she was an amazing creature in her own right. I also feel disloyal, if I do get a new Dog, I will obviously love them, hug them etc, and I worry I will feel guilty because it’s not her. Especially as I feel that I let her down, like the new Dog will be getting the attention I should be giving to her. I also feel scared that I will compare the new pooch to her, which wouldn’t be fair.

Saiisha, I really love Eckhart Tolle so thank you very much for that clip. I did watch it, and it has helped a bit. There is a lot of what he says that I don’t understand, he said to the man who asked the question

“Your conscientiousness and Your Dogs conscientiousness were not really separate, although we call them that” what does he mean by this?

And he said the entity that was the Dog continues on it’s journey back to the source, it continues on it’s journey as an underlying energy field, and ultimately is never separate from it’s source, it just believes itself to be separate? I would love to know what he means by this?

I would love to think that reincarnation is possible and that her Soul will somehow find it’s way back to me in another body, is he referring to something like that?