I agree on the comment about “you can be anything you want to be.” Simple fact of life: you can’t. Some people say that’s a negative and pessimistic statement. It’s not. Shaq couldn’t be a jockey no matter how much he was told he could be anything; conversely, a jockey couldn’t be a starting NBA center.

You’d probably be better off not getting wrapped up in the concept of a “god.” The concept of “god” has been floating around for a long time, and has taken on various appearances over time. What you are experiencing isn’t the mischievous actions of satan, loki, or similar. Looking for some paranormal entity to blame may not be the best use of time/resources.

Ah yes, the law of attraction. Remember that old song by Janice Joplin “Lord won’t you buy me a Mercedes Benz?” Remember what happened to Janice Joplin… death by heroin OD isn’t pretty.

Look… Shaq could hope, wish, dream, fantasize about being a Triple Crown winning jockey. Um, yeah, um. That Triple Crown winning jockey could spend all day daydreaming about being a starting NBC center, with about as much success.

If wishin and a hopin were enough, there would be no need for doing any actual work. (Sorry, on an oldies kick this early morning/late night). Might as well just go and buy a lottery ticket.

Figuring out what you want is only half of the battle. You have to be willing to work to go after what you want. When you start working on what you want, you sometimes bring forces into play that you cannot explain; forces that do not awaken when you fail to start working. You might think this is callous, but I’ll explain.

About 10 years ago, I was more-or-less down and out. I had a bachelor’s, master’s, and juris doctorate degrees. I won’t go into the specifics as to how I found myself pseudo-employed (let’s just say I could be an a** at times plus tended to have victimization issues, and still suffer from that at times), but I decided to do things differently. I initially set modest income and asset goals, and started to force myself into action, and worked whatever jobs I could find while looking for something in my field.

After about two years, found opportunity ~2,600 miles from home in a state I had never been to before, in a far corner of that state, in a place that my fellow law school acquaintances laughed it, in a place that I could never convince folks from any of my alma maters to come to. Started out at over my initial income goal, and after getting some debts paid down and getting things started up, I began saving ~15-20% off the top. You’d be amazed at how quickly money adds up. I reconfigured my goals, and continued to work at things.

Did I get some financial good fortune along the way? Yes. My father’s uncle died to a traffic crash about 3 years ago. My father and mother had divorced when I was a baby, and no matter what I did, it just wasn’t good enough for him. My father followed his uncle in death less than a year later. That was a significant financial benefit, as my father had not had time to squander his inheritance on booze, cigars, etc. However, I did not stop working; I did not stop saving 15-20% of my income.

Ultimately, the only practical way to get what you really want is to go out and go after it. If you want financial independence, set objectives, and work toward those objectives. Treat the unexpected gifts with reverence, and use them wisely.